(06-19-2012, 01:09 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: I really like the sounds of this set. No more fidgeting is actually a huge sign and a really good thing.
You can't be fidgety and in the zone lol.
I wouldn't worry to much about where the energy comes from with the feelings between you and woman..all thinking minds and left brains aside were all the same soup of matter/awareness/energy and in the tantric sense your consciousness, the consciousness that you are, is already in every person, including woman. And the force of life, the feminine Shakti is the same life force that beats every heart...so you already are in connection with those woman and its really yourself reflecting energy to yourself lol that's the sort of thing I would have hated to hear on the Alpha stage 3 I did but that understanding when made embodied fully is quite powerful.
If I am understanding you correctly the 'hmmm he looks interesting' look is one of the best looks to get in my opinion..because it means your trigger there most intense scanners-looking for incongruity and weakness to go full force. If you pass it means anything can happen..the sooner they give you that look and move on positively the more they are unconsciously surrendering because you seem safe and trust able.
Yep I think also that the fidgeting is huge, mostly because my boss was getting on my case about something. I had to stand calmly, relaxed, so I could explain myself very clearly. While at the same time, staying calm about it, no nervousness at all. About the looks, I get some of the most intense looks from women, but the good looks. It is clearly obvious that they see something they like and or that I have caught their attention some how that makes them notice me right away. I have noticed also that I am busting on women all the time and that women at work, have been trying to see if they could control me. However, I just turn it around on them, which makes them snap at me in a playful way.
Then I just keep doing it to them, to the point of them saying "Whatever" and walk away. However, the funny part is, I seem to be enjoying myself more with women, even if I don't find them that attractive. I am slowing learning about my own space, what I find acceptable by people and what is not. It is hard sometimes but not all the time to stand up in certain situations. However, I am learning slowly when I should speak up and when to let things slid. For example, is this something worth me getting upset or losing sleep over, if not just move on. Basically, learning when to pick my battles and when to leave things alone.
