12-06-2023, 07:38 PM
So a lot has happened in the past five years and I haven’t made much time in the last few years to do any subliminals since I’ve been incredibly busy. Many career changes have happened as well as two moves. I no longer live in New Orleans. I lived in Huntsville for a year and now I live in Chattanooga.
So just a quick rundown of what I’ve experienced so far:
Stage one you could say it was pretty uneventful as far as the social aspect is concerned. However I have started working out again as I have gained some weight after Covid in 2020. As of late, I have been working hard to get the weight off again. I have to admit I don’t know shit about lifting but I’m doing the best I can right now until I find someone who knows what they’re doing to help me out a little bit. I have also started to take martial arts classes, particularly Krav Maga, and Muaythai but I also took one jujitsu class so far. I’m thoroughly enjoying it and ironically it’s right across the street from my work.
Emotionally, It’s been a violent ride, but this is before I even started this run of AM6. Lots of depression, feeling like a failure in life, and comparing myself to others, has been rampant. I think I’m starting to get over it but only time will tell at this point. Nevertheless, I’m trying my best to improve my life the best I can. I’ve learned to cook in the last year and it’s become one of my passions.
I started stage two I think a week ago. Once again, not much has happened, but I made a point to do something and I actually did it.
There is a girl I’ve had my eye on at church. Incredibly beautiful. Well, Sunday, I decided to approach and ask her out to coffee. this is how the conversation went. I probably made some mistakes but I don’t care. I’m just glad I did it. I made my way outside where everyone was congregating, and she made her way into my direction and and I said “hi how are you” she said it very politely. And here is how the conversation went:
Me: excuse me can I ask you something?
Her: Yes what is it?
Me: look, I’ve seen you around before and I’d be pretty mad at myself. If I was too scared to come and talk to you and at least say hi to you. What’s your name?
Her: I’m K (just using her first initial)
I introduced myself and asked her if she was a Tennessee native and she said that she was not that she was actually from Oklahoma. we exchanged a few words, and it was a very pleasant conversation.
At the end of it all, I said:
Me: So K, actually have to get going but if you’re open to it, I’d love to take you out for coffee sometime
She said she appreciated the offer and I couldn’t really say what her reason was because there was a bunch of people around us talking, so it was kind of hard to hear, and my head was spinning, like a top from nervousness. But miraculously kept my composure. From that point I simply said, OK I understand and she thanked me for my understanding. From that point, I told her that I was still happy that I came and talk to her that it was great meeting her and have a great day we shook hands and then I went home.
So I did not get a date out of this. But I did get something. The overcoming of my fear and the realization that rejection is no big deal, and that it doesn’t have to always be unpleasant. Part of me thought I would end up walking away, dejected and defeated but ironically, I walked away, smiling. This was a breakthrough moment for me. I had actually asked out somebody that I actually liked even though I didn’t get a not date out of it. I’m still proud of myself. This must be the part of the subliminal where I am completely unaffected by rejection. I Can’t say that I’m not at least a little disappointed that she said no. But I’m happy that I got to talk to a pretty fantastic girl. I’m sure I’ll see her around.
I am excited to see what this run has to bring me in the next 4 to 5 months.
So just a quick rundown of what I’ve experienced so far:
Stage one you could say it was pretty uneventful as far as the social aspect is concerned. However I have started working out again as I have gained some weight after Covid in 2020. As of late, I have been working hard to get the weight off again. I have to admit I don’t know shit about lifting but I’m doing the best I can right now until I find someone who knows what they’re doing to help me out a little bit. I have also started to take martial arts classes, particularly Krav Maga, and Muaythai but I also took one jujitsu class so far. I’m thoroughly enjoying it and ironically it’s right across the street from my work.
Emotionally, It’s been a violent ride, but this is before I even started this run of AM6. Lots of depression, feeling like a failure in life, and comparing myself to others, has been rampant. I think I’m starting to get over it but only time will tell at this point. Nevertheless, I’m trying my best to improve my life the best I can. I’ve learned to cook in the last year and it’s become one of my passions.
I started stage two I think a week ago. Once again, not much has happened, but I made a point to do something and I actually did it.
There is a girl I’ve had my eye on at church. Incredibly beautiful. Well, Sunday, I decided to approach and ask her out to coffee. this is how the conversation went. I probably made some mistakes but I don’t care. I’m just glad I did it. I made my way outside where everyone was congregating, and she made her way into my direction and and I said “hi how are you” she said it very politely. And here is how the conversation went:
Me: excuse me can I ask you something?
Her: Yes what is it?
Me: look, I’ve seen you around before and I’d be pretty mad at myself. If I was too scared to come and talk to you and at least say hi to you. What’s your name?
Her: I’m K (just using her first initial)
I introduced myself and asked her if she was a Tennessee native and she said that she was not that she was actually from Oklahoma. we exchanged a few words, and it was a very pleasant conversation.
At the end of it all, I said:
Me: So K, actually have to get going but if you’re open to it, I’d love to take you out for coffee sometime
She said she appreciated the offer and I couldn’t really say what her reason was because there was a bunch of people around us talking, so it was kind of hard to hear, and my head was spinning, like a top from nervousness. But miraculously kept my composure. From that point I simply said, OK I understand and she thanked me for my understanding. From that point, I told her that I was still happy that I came and talk to her that it was great meeting her and have a great day we shook hands and then I went home.
So I did not get a date out of this. But I did get something. The overcoming of my fear and the realization that rejection is no big deal, and that it doesn’t have to always be unpleasant. Part of me thought I would end up walking away, dejected and defeated but ironically, I walked away, smiling. This was a breakthrough moment for me. I had actually asked out somebody that I actually liked even though I didn’t get a not date out of it. I’m still proud of myself. This must be the part of the subliminal where I am completely unaffected by rejection. I Can’t say that I’m not at least a little disappointed that she said no. But I’m happy that I got to talk to a pretty fantastic girl. I’m sure I’ll see her around.
I am excited to see what this run has to bring me in the next 4 to 5 months.
“When you change yourself...you change the world”
-Silvera, Gojira
-Silvera, Gojira
