12-16-2018, 12:09 AM
Great news. My wife has officially been hired into her new department. She starts on January 2nd and she’s extatic about it, not only that, but her new boss says that since she has been with the company for so long, she’s going to get paid significantly more than they were planning to pay a new person who would be going into that slot. So she’s getting a considerable raise. I don’t know if her minimal exposure to the sub has anything to do with this or not, but she used to have a tendency to just cling to whatever position in life she had rather than taking any kind of risk to change. This was definitely fear based.
The bad news is that she has been nitpicking at me a lot more this week. She is having a bigger, angrier reaction to a list of smaller and smaller things. For instance, I took about two steps away from her to look at something while she was talking, and she berated me for a good fifteen minutes for “ignoring” her. I had been listening, but she wouldn’t hear it. I have been really good lately about avoiding reacting with anger, but I have yet to find any reaction that does diffuse things.
I had thought that I was slowing down on the to do list, but I realized that I was taking on larger jobs, and having to drive our roommate to a large number of medical appointments. Truth is, I pretty much spend every spare moment cleaning the house these days, and it sometimes seems like I’m not making any headway. I am of course, but it’s not always that apparent to me.
I’m no longer consciously feeling this sub doing anything. Im not saying that it isn’t, but I’m not having the euphoric feeling that I got sometimes on the first two versions, nor am I getting the sudden flashes of insight and inspiration.
I forgot to run my loops last night. I set everything up, but then had the argument with my wife that I described above, and didn’t press play. I felt down on myself in the morning, but then I realized that my down feeling was nowhere near as bad as it was before I started running this sub. I mostly made up for it during my Saturday nap, but since we had run some errands earlier, I was about half an hour short of finishing my five loops.
The bad news is that she has been nitpicking at me a lot more this week. She is having a bigger, angrier reaction to a list of smaller and smaller things. For instance, I took about two steps away from her to look at something while she was talking, and she berated me for a good fifteen minutes for “ignoring” her. I had been listening, but she wouldn’t hear it. I have been really good lately about avoiding reacting with anger, but I have yet to find any reaction that does diffuse things.
I had thought that I was slowing down on the to do list, but I realized that I was taking on larger jobs, and having to drive our roommate to a large number of medical appointments. Truth is, I pretty much spend every spare moment cleaning the house these days, and it sometimes seems like I’m not making any headway. I am of course, but it’s not always that apparent to me.
I’m no longer consciously feeling this sub doing anything. Im not saying that it isn’t, but I’m not having the euphoric feeling that I got sometimes on the first two versions, nor am I getting the sudden flashes of insight and inspiration.
I forgot to run my loops last night. I set everything up, but then had the argument with my wife that I described above, and didn’t press play. I felt down on myself in the morning, but then I realized that my down feeling was nowhere near as bad as it was before I started running this sub. I mostly made up for it during my Saturday nap, but since we had run some errands earlier, I was about half an hour short of finishing my five loops.