10-18-2018, 02:54 AM
I woke up this afternoon feeling like somebody had taken an eggbeater to my brain. I don’t mean that it was painful, there was no headache, no pain at all. There was just a weird feeling in my head along with some pretty serious fatigue. I’m not having any of the weird side effects that some others have described, but this is putting some kind of strain on me, and it’s cumulative. I have one more run before I have three days off. I think I really need that.
We have a fill in supervisor tonight, and he got on me for having earbuds in. He didn’t order me to take them out right then and there so I didn’t. He was concerned about how it looked, so I re arranged the cords and put on a stocking cap so it was hidden. He was concerned that I was listening to music which would prevent me from hearing what I need to, so I just told him exactly what I was doing, and that it didn’t interfere with my hearing much at all. He seemed satisfied.
The thing is, not long ago I would have ripped the things out of my ears, stopped listening and never listened at work again. Also I would have had some serious anxiety about getting in trouble for days afterword. This time, there is zero anxiety. I know that on night shift, no one really cares what we do to stay awake, and that he won’t tell.
Nothing major to report during this run other than that. I did get a palpable energy flare up when I was talking to someone about setting up something I am really looking forward to doiing. Up my forearms again.
We have a fill in supervisor tonight, and he got on me for having earbuds in. He didn’t order me to take them out right then and there so I didn’t. He was concerned about how it looked, so I re arranged the cords and put on a stocking cap so it was hidden. He was concerned that I was listening to music which would prevent me from hearing what I need to, so I just told him exactly what I was doing, and that it didn’t interfere with my hearing much at all. He seemed satisfied.
The thing is, not long ago I would have ripped the things out of my ears, stopped listening and never listened at work again. Also I would have had some serious anxiety about getting in trouble for days afterword. This time, there is zero anxiety. I know that on night shift, no one really cares what we do to stay awake, and that he won’t tell.
Nothing major to report during this run other than that. I did get a palpable energy flare up when I was talking to someone about setting up something I am really looking forward to doiing. Up my forearms again.