(01-29-2019, 12:50 PM)Shannon Wrote:(01-29-2019, 12:34 PM)NoLimit Wrote: Shannon,
FRM 4.4 is too strong,
No, it's either not strong enough or just strong enough.
Quote: I can't hear to 8 hours straight of 3.3.1 because it's physically impossible for my body to stay in front of the computer and hear it without having the urge to run away of the room. Usually it happens at loop 5 or 6.
What? Impossible? I don't know what that word means. It's not impossible - "fearful you" just really, REALLY don't want to do it.
Quote:Also way more taxing on the energy lvl I tried playing piano and having DMSI "on" in the background and couldn't play my fav pieces.
On the other hand I'm banging hard every night ...
What is taxing your energy level is the internal conflict that is going on as FRM attempts to accomplish it's goals, and some part or parts of you fight that. So you fighting yourself trying to execute and not execute at the same time is what's eating up all that energy.
When you say you're banging hard every night, is that banging out the loops of DMSI, or banging out the girls?
I'm recovering from a burn-out and for me listening to E2 for 2-3 hours is the most I can take. After that my body say no. Not like "well I don't like this" but that "using this more will be to taxating for your health, do NOT continue". I know the feeling, it's the same with taxating things like being around other people to much, exercising to hard. But my case may be different, however to listen to your body and it's signal shouldn't be thrown off, it can cause serious harm to you and I am talking from experience. I had the same while running AM6. Maybe this happen to people who have stuck energies in their bodies which make the subliminal "banging it's head in the wall" and you not being able to take it in, or you take it in to much. Let say that the subliminal is colored water dropping into a glass of water (your self). If there isn't enough water (due to trauma for example, where you have dissosciated from yourself) there is to much colored liquid and to little water, there isn't enough for the subliminal to "land in". Just my theory.
EDIT:
I got to think about this issue when meditating and I really think it's about what I wrote about above. What caused this in me was that I didn't had contact with my root chakra i.e. me deepest subconscious self. What AM6 tried to do was to change my beliefs in my deepest subconscious self, but as I wasn't in contact or aware of this part, the subliminal just hammered this part of myself without me being able to interact and mitigate the changes that was going on. This may sound as a good thing, but what I felt was that I actually "became the script" (I think I have read about some other member describing it the same way), and this is not a good thing, trust me. Wow this really was a revelation to realise this (thanks for making me think about it!). And when you don't have contact with your root chakra/deepest subconscious self, you lack energy to make the changes, and that is when my body told me to STOP (but I didn't, which I late had to regret). But now as I am learning to discharge this tension in my body, and through meditation start connecting with this deepest part of myself (a part that I have read, and also realise that many people take for granted - in a book called "eastern body western mind" the author describe it as natural for people as it is natural for a fish that it swims in water - it's not even aware of it's circumstances. But when trauma hits you, or you grow up without the ability to get in touch with this part (due to a traumatised mother/parent) you don't get this fundamental part of your Self. My way of connecting with it is as I said through meditation but also physical exercise/martial arts and cold showers and getting in touch with the survival mechanism and anger that live in the root chakra energy center.
Sorry for the rant, more of a post fit for my own journal but maybe it can be related to the other case.