10-17-2018, 12:33 PM
Hi Shannon,
I’ve been on USLMB for the past 5-6 weeks but before that I was on DMSI straight from 3.0 to 3.2 (so over 1.5 yrs) and something has occurred to me with regards to women- something that may or may not help with the advancement of DMSI.
Unless I find the woman absolutely breathtaking I want little to nothing to do with her sexually, but at the same time find it hard to break the ice and attract those sort of women (sort of like being a perfectionist but with regards to the women I interact).
I believe it may be fear of intimacy or of developing a real relationship with a woman (as I haven’t had what I’d call a real gf yet in my life, I’m about to be 25).
I say this bc I feel completely relaxed and at ease when I’m around strippers and hookers (and I’m talking about the even most attractive). So I don’t think that it can be a fear of women or sex but this comes up whenever I get the feeling that there may be a potential for a relationship with the woman.
For example 3.1 manifested a woman into my life who traveled for work- so I only ever saw her 1-2x a month max and this went on for like 6 months until she quit her job- there was no real potential for a relationship with her, we hung out and had sex when she was around and we wouldn’t even really speak much when she wasn’t around. Even her I didn’t really feel at complete ease with until it was clear that this was 100% casual- which didn’t happen until after the 2nd time or so that I saw her
I believe that the inclusion of the FRM may be bringing up these realizations- along with other realizations such as the fact that actually succeeding with regards to any of my business goal would result in my becoming wealthy which would result in my life being considerably different
And for some reason this leads to feelings of discomfort and uneasiness- and I don’t really know why, I don’t really feel like there’s any reason to fear any of these things but they’re coming up so I thought I should mention them.
Looking forward to some feedback
I’ve been on USLMB for the past 5-6 weeks but before that I was on DMSI straight from 3.0 to 3.2 (so over 1.5 yrs) and something has occurred to me with regards to women- something that may or may not help with the advancement of DMSI.
Unless I find the woman absolutely breathtaking I want little to nothing to do with her sexually, but at the same time find it hard to break the ice and attract those sort of women (sort of like being a perfectionist but with regards to the women I interact).
I believe it may be fear of intimacy or of developing a real relationship with a woman (as I haven’t had what I’d call a real gf yet in my life, I’m about to be 25).
I say this bc I feel completely relaxed and at ease when I’m around strippers and hookers (and I’m talking about the even most attractive). So I don’t think that it can be a fear of women or sex but this comes up whenever I get the feeling that there may be a potential for a relationship with the woman.
For example 3.1 manifested a woman into my life who traveled for work- so I only ever saw her 1-2x a month max and this went on for like 6 months until she quit her job- there was no real potential for a relationship with her, we hung out and had sex when she was around and we wouldn’t even really speak much when she wasn’t around. Even her I didn’t really feel at complete ease with until it was clear that this was 100% casual- which didn’t happen until after the 2nd time or so that I saw her
I believe that the inclusion of the FRM may be bringing up these realizations- along with other realizations such as the fact that actually succeeding with regards to any of my business goal would result in my becoming wealthy which would result in my life being considerably different
And for some reason this leads to feelings of discomfort and uneasiness- and I don’t really know why, I don’t really feel like there’s any reason to fear any of these things but they’re coming up so I thought I should mention them.
Looking forward to some feedback