10-10-2018, 05:42 AM
Nice one Shannon.
I had a first with subs in that I've had resistance before in the form of wanting to change, but this time I had resistance to resistance and had to change back because I had a deep feeling that 'I wasn't finished'. I went back to USLM after a week of being off it.
I'm not enjoying it though - It's somehow triggering a lot of passivity and laziness in me right now as well as dampening motivation and self responsibility because 'it's all going to be done for me'. Quite unpleasant. My tendency in the past has been to hide from responsibility and conflict/friction and the sense that this sub will 'take care of me' is something I have to overcome to execute properly.
I had a first with subs in that I've had resistance before in the form of wanting to change, but this time I had resistance to resistance and had to change back because I had a deep feeling that 'I wasn't finished'. I went back to USLM after a week of being off it.
I'm not enjoying it though - It's somehow triggering a lot of passivity and laziness in me right now as well as dampening motivation and self responsibility because 'it's all going to be done for me'. Quite unpleasant. My tendency in the past has been to hide from responsibility and conflict/friction and the sense that this sub will 'take care of me' is something I have to overcome to execute properly.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.