10-04-2018, 01:47 PM
Well I realized something today. As much as this fear sucks. And fear has sucked A TON throughout my life. I have two options. Either face it, overcome it, and get rid of it. Or keep hiding from it and have it continue to screw up my life. Either way I'm always dealing with fear so I might as well pick the option that actually gets rid of it vs keeps it in the background always manipulating me.
One thing I wonder if Shannon addressed in the fear removal. When confronted with fear and the flight instinct kicks in, the perception is you move away from the fear. But really you don't go anywhere. The fear is still there. So while it might seem like an appealing option to run to get away, in the end it doesn't really result in getting away from fear. I just noticed this today, so I suspect Shannon tweaked something to convince the subconscious that running from fear won't actually result in feeling better, so it's more likely to cooperate and face the fear instead.
With that I also realized a lot of the heavy stuff I've been dealing with is all fear related. When you're in the grips of fear your perception is very distorted. I've been focusing too much on trying to change these perceptions without first addressing the fear that holds them in place. And the fear is really strong. Even though I've made a lot of progress these past few years, I feel like within the past few months I've sort of plateaued. I've got a relatively financially stable job and routine that I've settled into, but I really dislike the fact that the thought of moving beyond this fills me with panic and dread. That's not the ideal response to improving my life. Have to work on that one.
One thing I wonder if Shannon addressed in the fear removal. When confronted with fear and the flight instinct kicks in, the perception is you move away from the fear. But really you don't go anywhere. The fear is still there. So while it might seem like an appealing option to run to get away, in the end it doesn't really result in getting away from fear. I just noticed this today, so I suspect Shannon tweaked something to convince the subconscious that running from fear won't actually result in feeling better, so it's more likely to cooperate and face the fear instead.
With that I also realized a lot of the heavy stuff I've been dealing with is all fear related. When you're in the grips of fear your perception is very distorted. I've been focusing too much on trying to change these perceptions without first addressing the fear that holds them in place. And the fear is really strong. Even though I've made a lot of progress these past few years, I feel like within the past few months I've sort of plateaued. I've got a relatively financially stable job and routine that I've settled into, but I really dislike the fact that the thought of moving beyond this fills me with panic and dread. That's not the ideal response to improving my life. Have to work on that one.
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