06-03-2018, 05:06 AM
(06-02-2018, 03:44 PM)Razib1988 Wrote:(06-02-2018, 02:04 PM)mat422 Wrote: And as far as women goes. My self esteem took a serious nose dive these past few weeks. Which I got wrapped up in instead of remaining detached towards it.
It's like my subconscious is trying to get me to see I'm just a big massive failure therefore I should just quit dmsi. It masks or minimizes the success and magnifies the negative.
Why do you always say the things that I feel too, mat422?
Well if I had to guess it's that a lot of us are reacting in a similar manner towards DMSI. I've always been able to accurately translate the mess of feelings inside my body into words.
Working on really allowing DMSI to pull me through these fears and face them. I'm realizing all this thinking, theorizing, and trying to figure things out kept digging me deeper and deeper into a rabbit hole of confusion and fear. So enough is enough, no more thinking, just doing. Executing the script is terrifying, but I have to face the fear and show my subconscious there's nothing to fear and that we can get past it. Just wish I wasn't so afraid of absolutely nothing. I'm afraid of things that could possibly go wrong and I'm afraid of things that are different. It's just all my life I've had an irrational fear that's held me in place. Even if I moved up and improved somehow, once I settled into a comfort zone it's like that fearful part of me reset and I was once again trapped. I'd like to just live without that so I have the freedom to make choices without feeling the need to battle some inner part of me that drags me back down.
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