12-21-2023, 10:00 PM
OGSF has surprised me
Throughout most of my life, I have always thought of myself as a nice guy, the kind that finishes last. Well now that guilt, shame and fear are pulling back I find myself not falling into that category anymore.
It's a little shocking as it hit me today, that I'm not a nice guy. Along with the pulling back of this facade, I've taken into account both good and bad qualities that have been brewing under the surface of the nice guy mask. Good; my humor is even better because I'm not scared of what people think. Bad; I have some emotional patterns that I have to address and some anger from all the stuffing and resentment over the years.
On the DISC/SCID test, I have always tested very high in the dominant trait, 96/100 score to be precise but I was a bit perplexed as to why it never showed up in my life. Most chances I had to be dominant, I recoiled. It would be nice to grow into this and use it well.
Its cleared up my thinking quite a bit and it must have taken considerable effort to suppress a trait that is that strong in me, if the DISC test is to be believed.
Throughout most of my life, I have always thought of myself as a nice guy, the kind that finishes last. Well now that guilt, shame and fear are pulling back I find myself not falling into that category anymore.
It's a little shocking as it hit me today, that I'm not a nice guy. Along with the pulling back of this facade, I've taken into account both good and bad qualities that have been brewing under the surface of the nice guy mask. Good; my humor is even better because I'm not scared of what people think. Bad; I have some emotional patterns that I have to address and some anger from all the stuffing and resentment over the years.
On the DISC/SCID test, I have always tested very high in the dominant trait, 96/100 score to be precise but I was a bit perplexed as to why it never showed up in my life. Most chances I had to be dominant, I recoiled. It would be nice to grow into this and use it well.
Its cleared up my thinking quite a bit and it must have taken considerable effort to suppress a trait that is that strong in me, if the DISC test is to be believed.
