05-20-2018, 02:50 PM
More stuff. I think I've been resisting the anxiety relief in DMSI. In some odd way I'm anxious about letting go of anxiety? It's weird but I have this fear that if I relax my life will fall apart or that I'll fall apart. I'm constantly panicked feeling like my time is running out to achieve what I want in life, but I've realized it's those kinds of thoughts that actually prevent me from thinking clearly about how I'm going to achieve everything,
So I've just been practicing taking deep breaths and slowing down on everything. Disconnecting from that frantic energy I seem to always be wired with. I need to learn how to relax better. My minds always going a mile a minute worrying about all kinds of stuff. It's not good for my music either. I try to cram it all in instead of taking breaks and let myself breathe for a bit. It's weird but that frantic mindset seems to alter perception of time as well. When I'm relaxed and calm I notice time moves much more slowly and I feel like I make the most of it.
It's just so bizarre how something as helpful as anxiety relief makes me anxious. Fear of relaxation? Apparently that's a thing for me.
So I've just been practicing taking deep breaths and slowing down on everything. Disconnecting from that frantic energy I seem to always be wired with. I need to learn how to relax better. My minds always going a mile a minute worrying about all kinds of stuff. It's not good for my music either. I try to cram it all in instead of taking breaks and let myself breathe for a bit. It's weird but that frantic mindset seems to alter perception of time as well. When I'm relaxed and calm I notice time moves much more slowly and I feel like I make the most of it.
It's just so bizarre how something as helpful as anxiety relief makes me anxious. Fear of relaxation? Apparently that's a thing for me.
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