11-29-2017, 08:14 PM
Stage 1, Day 19:
Managed to get all my listening in, I’m even doing a bonus hour right now.
- My wife today keeps telling me how much she misses me and actually wants to work things out.
- I came to the realization that I have no idea in what direction to take my life in next. Even though I’m on a certain path, I’m only here because I don’t know what else to do and everything else I’ve tried so far has failed so now I have all this ambition and energy being directed into things that I know I would rather not be doing.
- Momentarily faced the fear once again that my life may end up stagnant and that I may not live up to my potential.
- All these thoughts and yet I reminded myself that my journey isn’t over and that ultimately it’s up to me to make things happen.
It feels strange to just keep going when you don’t truly know where you’re headed. A lot of the material I’ve read about masculinity in the past 2 weeks have stated that a real man has purpose and vision. I’ve definitely had these things before but now, I’m unsure of where to steer the ship due to having all pathways blocked. Seems my next challenge is finding or making a way and a decision.
Managed to get all my listening in, I’m even doing a bonus hour right now.
- My wife today keeps telling me how much she misses me and actually wants to work things out.
- I came to the realization that I have no idea in what direction to take my life in next. Even though I’m on a certain path, I’m only here because I don’t know what else to do and everything else I’ve tried so far has failed so now I have all this ambition and energy being directed into things that I know I would rather not be doing.
- Momentarily faced the fear once again that my life may end up stagnant and that I may not live up to my potential.
- All these thoughts and yet I reminded myself that my journey isn’t over and that ultimately it’s up to me to make things happen.
It feels strange to just keep going when you don’t truly know where you’re headed. A lot of the material I’ve read about masculinity in the past 2 weeks have stated that a real man has purpose and vision. I’ve definitely had these things before but now, I’m unsure of where to steer the ship due to having all pathways blocked. Seems my next challenge is finding or making a way and a decision.