04-02-2011, 12:40 PM
Done with stage 5 Alpha 011
there were some amazing moments and changes
that seemed to happen along the way
but by the end I felt perpetually dissatisfied, relatively
negative, lazier than I have ever been in my life and absolutely indifferent
to everything-it was like a smooth cage animal syndrome all over again.
That being said, I was more forward than I have ever been in my life, a lot
of eye seduction going on, great ease and comfort when interacting with all women, I was emotionally imperturbable unless something got me aggressive-and then I handled it like a bat out of hell, felt like I had huge presence, and seemed to get alot of respect when socializing as well as new ease with socializing. I feel this stage turned me into an extrovert, sitting at home alone could be done but more and more I felt like I was outgrowing my life and 'needed' to push my comfort zone-which was a concept that stopped existing, as I was so relaxed and indifferent that it was hard to get my pulse up unless I was going for a new pr in the weight room lol.
Many time I thought the stage was doing nothing but depressing me at points and leaving me mentally exhausted but as always looking back on how I use to be-the changes are ridiculous, still some insecurities but much improved nonetheless.
Actually, I feel more old self than ever-but in a much improved, more mature way. Nothing I use to care about I still care about-like at all-its kind of freaky.
Onwards to stage 6...hoping to round off with that wildflower 'everything is freakin amazing nonstop-energizer bunny of alphaness and women swarm me' but that might take through sex magnet and another round of Alpha 011
there were some amazing moments and changes
that seemed to happen along the way
but by the end I felt perpetually dissatisfied, relatively
negative, lazier than I have ever been in my life and absolutely indifferent
to everything-it was like a smooth cage animal syndrome all over again.
That being said, I was more forward than I have ever been in my life, a lot
of eye seduction going on, great ease and comfort when interacting with all women, I was emotionally imperturbable unless something got me aggressive-and then I handled it like a bat out of hell, felt like I had huge presence, and seemed to get alot of respect when socializing as well as new ease with socializing. I feel this stage turned me into an extrovert, sitting at home alone could be done but more and more I felt like I was outgrowing my life and 'needed' to push my comfort zone-which was a concept that stopped existing, as I was so relaxed and indifferent that it was hard to get my pulse up unless I was going for a new pr in the weight room lol.
Many time I thought the stage was doing nothing but depressing me at points and leaving me mentally exhausted but as always looking back on how I use to be-the changes are ridiculous, still some insecurities but much improved nonetheless.
Actually, I feel more old self than ever-but in a much improved, more mature way. Nothing I use to care about I still care about-like at all-its kind of freaky.
Onwards to stage 6...hoping to round off with that wildflower 'everything is freakin amazing nonstop-energizer bunny of alphaness and women swarm me' but that might take through sex magnet and another round of Alpha 011
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
