AwesomeYoungDude's Alpha Journal

[AwesomeYoungDude]

Stage 3 Week 1 (Week 4 Overcoming Procrastination)

• Immediate up tick in the amount of irritation and anger with everything around me. Occurred within the first 8 hours of listening to stage 3 and lasted for 3 days. At first I thought it was insecurity, due to the nature of the self talk. "Hey why wasn't I invited to that meeting." "Who gave you permission to work on that project." "How come no one is returning my calls." "That person's opinion is wrong, mine is right." "Why are you disagreeing with me." This kind of self talk occurs with insecurity. I determined it was anger and irritation upon finding that I had problems with most everyone I interacted with.
  
• Three days with lump or knot in my throat after the first day of anger.
  
• Continued persistence in mental focus (mental clarity). The duration of mental focus (a session in which I can remain focused on a specific item) continues to increase in small increments. Its like building muscle, you don't jump from benching 25 lb to 250 lb overnight. I still have a long ways to go, but I'm going in the right direction.
  
• Reduction in the number of grammar and spelling errors upon first typing. I'm finding less and less typos upon re-reading of what was typed. Evidence of increased mental focus and clarity.
  
• Re-occurrence of eye twitch when interacting with someone whom I think is asking or whom I think will be asking a question that I do not know how to answer. I found this can also occur if I think the person will ask me to do work.
  
• Increased desire and motivation to push myself mentally and physically. This motivation is sometimes converted into action but not all the time.
  
• Decreased motivation to get to work early in the morning. I'm fine arriving just before it is considered late. Previously arriving at this time would result in a feeling of guilt. No motivation to work late into the evening.
  

In regards to irritation and anger I asked for clarification from Shannon via the following posts on his thread.

Can someone point me to the description of AM11 stages.

Shannon, I see a pattern in the AM11 posts. A major bout of resistance, depression in stage 2. Stage 3 is anger and rage. Is this part of the programming or just a reaction that some are seeing. Does stage 2 break the listener down emotionally, like a military boot camp. Does stage 3 start with the anger thing so that we don't take crap anymore. LOL it would be funny to find out that stage 2 has the following "I will revert back to the insecurities of my youth", and stage 3 has "I will be angry at the world.

So the question is, "Is this all just part of the plan", and if so can you explain why and what the purpose is. Seeing the purpose helps to define what the end goal is.

What I see is that Stage 2 is where the alpha programming starts, and the user begins being faced with new ideas that conflict with current ones. This produces resistance in some people, but not everyone. In Stage 2, you also start seeing the reaction against the way people have been treating the user of the program as the new programming takes effect.

Stage 3 makes this full on, and there is an equilibrium exchange of sorts that takes place. The previous programming, perceptions and fears are faced with a growing demand for respect and refusal to be treated poorly or walked on. Eventually this causes pressure as the two cannot be enacted at the same time. When the new programming takes over, the pressure is released because the person forces a shift externally. They no longer put up with being treated poorly, etc. But while this shift is taking place, there can be some irritation and even anger.

The way you word it, it seems much worse than it actually is. Anger and rage? Anger at being treated like a doormat, sure, but rage isn't realistic. It doesn't take long to get people to stop treating you poorly when you put them in their place with a little bit of expressed anger.

Stage 2 is where the alpha programming really gets serious in the beginning. That's why it makes people feel insecure sometimes, because they are constantly being pushed forward out of their comfort zone. Stage 3 causes a clash between "what has been" and "what should be", and eventually the dissonance produces the upset that causes "what should be" to become "what is".

This should explain the why of it all. People are creatures of habit, and they tend to get comfortable and stop moving. The first sections of this program are bombarding you with a new reality that doesn't fit with that old comfortable reality, and that produces friction, which the program then uses to make the new reality show up.

That helps, rage is an incorrect description. It can denote violent and uncontrolled physical force which should never occur.

Irritation is correct. I could also call it frustration. I've been thinking about your wording of "expressed anger".

Typical interaction between subordinante beta employees and superiors generally goes like this:
A beta finds something irritating and either (1) says nothing re-affirming he is a beta, (2) talks behind the bosses back, backstabbing, (a major no no in my book), or (3) yells at his boss. The problem is that the boss still sees the beta as a beta because the beta being a beta acts like a beta, because he is a beta, not an alpha. So the boss continues to treat the beta as who the beta is a beta. In time the frustration level of the beta increases to higher levels of anger which can lead to a rash decision, "if the company doesn't listen to me I'll quit", "Ok mister boss man, if that's the way you want it I'll just fire off a flaming email addressed to the entire company regarding how inept you are","Ok if you don't like me, I'll just do what I have to and no more". These non-violent acts (a fit a rage) re-enforces in the beta's mind that he is still a beta. It also undermines, re-affirms the status of beta, with respect to his peers.

Now with alpha training, the interaction with the boss starts with the boss's assumption that he is interacting with a beta. The alpha stresses the irritation, expressed anger, with the bosses behavior. This is not uncontrolled anger, but a controlled interaction expressing a dis-satisfaction with the boss's current behavior. [alpha] "When you do the following, I.......". The talk is backed up by the alpha's behavior. If not on the first interaction, upon subsequent exchanges, the boss sees the alpha as an alpha.

I'll let you know how it goes.

Shannon, from the AM11 programming stand point what happens if I never express that anger. Example: I have an insecure boss and I'm working towards a better position with a different department. Engaging with the boss will result in undesirable consequences. My question is not how to handle the situation with the boss, but what occurs within the alpha training (my mind). I don't expect to blow a circuit because I don't express anger, but will this lessen the alpha programming. I would love to just quit my job every time I have a insecure boss, however, jobs are not like coats.

No, it won't lessen the programming unless you're in a situation which seriously degrades your self esteem. That would be something like living with your mother... having an idiot boss isn't going to degrade your self esteem, so what will happen is that there will be a higher degree of pressure because you haven't changed the outer circumstances to match the inner ones (yet). Great incentive to make a positive change though.

The follow-up to this is kind of interesting. I used the insecure boss as an example because its easy for forum readers to relate to. My boss is neither insecure nor a jerk. However, my boss was one of the many people towards whom I had a high level of irritation and anger. I spoke with my boss and found that their avoidance of me was because they were intimidated by me....LOL. My boss sidestepped me because they did not want to bother me with such small tasks. My boss apologized and has interacted with me accordingly.

The results of the several instances of "expressed anger" by me have been positive and have resulted in my assertion as an alpha.