Side effect of SM and WM

[Darkness]

SM: wanted nothing to do w/ enlightenment. Came to terms with the emotional impact on the amount of time i haven't exploited. Social: it's difficult to flow with. Desire to have a fun satisfying life becomes ever present. Heart chakra and throat chakra feels disconnected and stunted. When spoke I felt all I said was emotional whitenoise, turned people off. Animals and small children took extreme liking to me.
Wasn't able to contribute socially , took social wallflower role. You will look EXTREMELY good on film. Will be questioned if you're gay. Anxiety will be subtly present from time to time. Speech impediment , even you think really hard prior to utterance. You will feel like a man. People will divulge their inner thoughts to you and feel confident doing so. Financially not that serious aside from wanting to profit viciously greedily from the smallest of amount of efforts. You take your vitamins judiciously. Greater fiscally discipline and strictness in expenditures. Cynicism.
Neutrally accept that your enemy can prosper and will far more than you.
/\ hardest lesson learned.

How about your time management? Are you thinking all the time on woman and sex or you still focus enough to finish your side projects ?

Time became the most valuable liability. Yes , you think about women a lot and further in they lose that glamour you don't overvalue them and your goals even if she wants sex , ends up taking presidence. You try to become smarter, increase your IQ so that work becomes easy and life does too. Exploitation will be the modus operandi of operating after SM.