03-18-2011, 11:57 AM
(03-18-2011, 10:50 AM)WildFlower Wrote:Quote:I don't know, but I've never been "plugged in" and I always saw things differently than others. Then when you try to point it out it just goes right over their heads or they think you are weird. It's like some people are so controlled by the media and they don't even realize it. I actually feel that sometimes I live within a fabricated social construct and I'm operating independently of it.
This is spot on. I totally understand where you're coming from, you've summed up exactly how it is for me too. Have you ever read Bill Bryon's 'life and times of the thunderbolt kid'? Mildly plagiarizing a theme from that book, when girls comment on my 'weirdness', 'quirkiness' or whatever, I often joke and flirt with them that I'm form another planet and I've been sent here to "fly, become invisible, shoot guns out of people's hands from a distance, and wear my underpants over my jeans like superman." This get's a laugh, but at the same time it can feel isolating. I'd be lying if I said my 'uniqueness' doesn't bring about a certain degree of loneliness though.
It totally amazes - and depresses - me how few people I meet in my day-to-day life actually think for themselves. 'herd-mentality' doesn't even begin to describe it. I'm not even particularly 'weird'; my opinions aren't out there are anything, I just happen to think for myself. I guess that's a trait enough to make anyone stand out. It's always been that way for me though. I guess we all relate to the world in different ways. I feel I relate to the world directly how it affects me emotionally; what I observe in others is they relate to the world how they are told to relate to it, or how they see others relating to it. Unfortunately in the west it seems a very superficial, materialistic way of relating. Bottomless pit.
I get people saying that to me as well. I always thought for myself and stood up for what i believed in. This of course made people think i was weird or strange. I am weird and quirky which seems to disturb people and how they should be "Normal" and i should be to. When normal is just a generally accepted perception that some one deemed the bar for society. In fact i recently on my journal posted this same type of thing but in a sense on how i feel more human. Not in the sense of items and status but more on a natural level of awareness for our world. Greater then i had already had before Alpha Male.
I always told my sister that i must be from another planet or something for me not to relate to people the way others do. Like you said Wildflower i think it has do to with most people being superficial and materialistic. it seems like they think being cool is more important then just being you. I mean money and items are just that, what happens when you take that all way. They are nothing but human like the rest of us.
