11-21-2015, 08:16 PM
Update:
Feeling the changes creeping up. Very slowly but they are coming, I can feel it. In the first week I was disappointed when I'd experience the same low level behaviour that my flesh shell would subjugate me to experience. Now however, I see that my body is improving. It's the attitude. I'm beginning to care less about the opinions of others and in that same breath, their views on my failures.
For example before public speaking earlier this week, I was still nervous, but I cared far less about what they thought about my nervousness. My attitude was just "oh well, get it done and you know it will help you grow". Whereas in the past it would have been fixating on "they can see your nervousness and judge you unworthy, so you are weak".
Another one is my willingness to ask questions when before shyness or something would hold me back.
My interactions with women are slowly improving. I know how to deal with this gender, but my self inflicted disorders/imbalances have prevented me from exercising the extent of my knowledge into the material. This is changing now and it is good.
This is Day 10 I believe.
Feeling the changes creeping up. Very slowly but they are coming, I can feel it. In the first week I was disappointed when I'd experience the same low level behaviour that my flesh shell would subjugate me to experience. Now however, I see that my body is improving. It's the attitude. I'm beginning to care less about the opinions of others and in that same breath, their views on my failures.
For example before public speaking earlier this week, I was still nervous, but I cared far less about what they thought about my nervousness. My attitude was just "oh well, get it done and you know it will help you grow". Whereas in the past it would have been fixating on "they can see your nervousness and judge you unworthy, so you are weak".
Another one is my willingness to ask questions when before shyness or something would hold me back.
My interactions with women are slowly improving. I know how to deal with this gender, but my self inflicted disorders/imbalances have prevented me from exercising the extent of my knowledge into the material. This is changing now and it is good.
This is Day 10 I believe.
