11-02-2015, 04:37 AM
Yeah I feel for people with Bipolar, lol.
I don't think I suffer from social anxiety or depression. I mainly feel like this when listening to subs though.
I feel weird today too, It is like I have a dark cloud in my mind. I can't be bothered to do anything what so ever.
I have been doing EFT everyday, but it is not helping when I feel like this. I tried PSTEC it made me feel more neutral in some ways but I really feel like fuck everything mood.
When I feel like this, I really would loved to just drop out of society. I have been thinking of the old days lately like in roman times or something like that and thinking of how so much easier it was then, for some reason I don't like the way technology is taking over everything. It is hard to pin point what I mean, but I can imagine even in the 70's it was so much easier.
I know it is impossible to time travel but It would be so nice.
I feel trapped in my own mind. I want a certain life and I can imagine it, but to most people I am just dreaming. But even though I don't know if I can have that life, I still don't want to settle for anything less then that, even if it is impossible.
What do you do if you can't have what you desire in life? What if your desires are just too unrealistic? But the desire is so strong. The is no way you can just get rid of the desire or hide it or cover it up with mediocrity.
What is the point living if you can't have what you desire? ....seems a bit pointless. Why have desire in the first at all? It must be there for a reason, other then to just taunt you.
There has got to be more to life then what I am living now, there just must be. I really feel I am getting in my own way some how, but it is so ingrained and apart of me, that I just can not see it. I must identify with it so strongly that, all I see is just me and nothing else.
I don't think I suffer from social anxiety or depression. I mainly feel like this when listening to subs though.
I feel weird today too, It is like I have a dark cloud in my mind. I can't be bothered to do anything what so ever.
I have been doing EFT everyday, but it is not helping when I feel like this. I tried PSTEC it made me feel more neutral in some ways but I really feel like fuck everything mood.
When I feel like this, I really would loved to just drop out of society. I have been thinking of the old days lately like in roman times or something like that and thinking of how so much easier it was then, for some reason I don't like the way technology is taking over everything. It is hard to pin point what I mean, but I can imagine even in the 70's it was so much easier.
I know it is impossible to time travel but It would be so nice.
I feel trapped in my own mind. I want a certain life and I can imagine it, but to most people I am just dreaming. But even though I don't know if I can have that life, I still don't want to settle for anything less then that, even if it is impossible.
What do you do if you can't have what you desire in life? What if your desires are just too unrealistic? But the desire is so strong. The is no way you can just get rid of the desire or hide it or cover it up with mediocrity.
What is the point living if you can't have what you desire? ....seems a bit pointless. Why have desire in the first at all? It must be there for a reason, other then to just taunt you.
There has got to be more to life then what I am living now, there just must be. I really feel I am getting in my own way some how, but it is so ingrained and apart of me, that I just can not see it. I must identify with it so strongly that, all I see is just me and nothing else.
