03-01-2011, 02:01 PM
Patti wow, where did you get my picture? Now that I re-read the post I see what you mean.
I still have a lot of insecurities that’s why I'm all “talk to the hand” when someone gives me attitude. I’m in the jerk mode of AM11 (I’ve not been alpha before and the power is going to my head). I was truly a beta male in the past. In my past “fear of confrontation” impeded my interactions with others. I was easily walked all over by others including my older children. The attitude stops in interactions with my wife. She knows I’m changing and cuts me some slack. She is strong and caring. She is not protective and wants me to grow. We have a great loving relationship of which the roles are established and power is equal otherwise the marriage would not work. We both hope the final version awesomeyoungdude is more like “Bond…James AwesomeYoungDude Bond. But for the mean time it appears that my interaction with the rest of the world is attempting to assert my place in the pecking order.
Because I’m not use to asserting my alphaness, my reactions are awkward at best. I expect that later stages of AM11 will instill a more polished response as opposed to the current “talk to the hand” mentality/jerk mode.
I still have a lot of insecurities that’s why I'm all “talk to the hand” when someone gives me attitude. I’m in the jerk mode of AM11 (I’ve not been alpha before and the power is going to my head). I was truly a beta male in the past. In my past “fear of confrontation” impeded my interactions with others. I was easily walked all over by others including my older children. The attitude stops in interactions with my wife. She knows I’m changing and cuts me some slack. She is strong and caring. She is not protective and wants me to grow. We have a great loving relationship of which the roles are established and power is equal otherwise the marriage would not work. We both hope the final version awesomeyoungdude is more like “Bond…James AwesomeYoungDude Bond. But for the mean time it appears that my interaction with the rest of the world is attempting to assert my place in the pecking order.
Because I’m not use to asserting my alphaness, my reactions are awkward at best. I expect that later stages of AM11 will instill a more polished response as opposed to the current “talk to the hand” mentality/jerk mode.
