10-01-2015, 07:57 AM
I'm starting to wonder if my parents struggle with life could have influenced me as a child and made me fear the world. I mean we weren't in poverty, but it kind of always seemed like both my parents were slaves to the system. Doing what they had to do to survive, but always longing for something more.
I read a post by Shannon in my journal that talks about asking where the fear comes from. I'm going to meditate on the why of the fear. It seems like now I'm just consumed by this big overwhelming sensation of fear but no sense of where it comes from. It would probably benefit me to break it down and attempt to change my perspective on some of those things.
I keep expecting the subliminal to handle it all on it's own, but I'm starting to wonder if I'm the type of personality that needs conscious intervention in order to change. I've looked over a lot of my old journals and it seems like I have the same sticking points that I never really break through. I'll be honest, it kinda sucks. This has been a recurring pattern in my life, watching things work pretty well for others and then me trying them and not really getting anywhere.
I read a post by Shannon in my journal that talks about asking where the fear comes from. I'm going to meditate on the why of the fear. It seems like now I'm just consumed by this big overwhelming sensation of fear but no sense of where it comes from. It would probably benefit me to break it down and attempt to change my perspective on some of those things.
I keep expecting the subliminal to handle it all on it's own, but I'm starting to wonder if I'm the type of personality that needs conscious intervention in order to change. I've looked over a lot of my old journals and it seems like I have the same sticking points that I never really break through. I'll be honest, it kinda sucks. This has been a recurring pattern in my life, watching things work pretty well for others and then me trying them and not really getting anywhere.
