09-24-2015, 03:32 PM
Sometimes I wonder what it's like to genuinely like oneself. Is it a good goal? Or is it one of those fleeting things that feels good and then leaves you craving more? I've tried loving myself or even not being so hard on myself but I feel like I don't deserve it. And there's no good reason why I don't deserve it. I just feel like I don't, like I'm not allowed or everyone else is the exception.
I keep listening to EPRHA and while it's helped, it still feels like I'm rejecting that last bit to allowing myself to heal. I'm starting to wonder if EPRHA can even tackle that or if I'm going to need something outside the subliminals. I don't know anymore. This whole process to me has been a mystery. I've just going on blind faith at this point. For all I know I'm not making a damn bit of difference at this point.
I keep listening to EPRHA and while it's helped, it still feels like I'm rejecting that last bit to allowing myself to heal. I'm starting to wonder if EPRHA can even tackle that or if I'm going to need something outside the subliminals. I don't know anymore. This whole process to me has been a mystery. I've just going on blind faith at this point. For all I know I'm not making a damn bit of difference at this point.
