09-03-2015, 05:31 PM
Today's lesson was that my subconscious mind is me. Simple and obvious, but often overlooked. A lot of the time I treat it as the enemy. And I do this because it contains all the things about myself that I refuse to acknowledge. I want to be confident, I want to be happy, and I want to like myself. But there are still emotional wounds within me that need to be confronted face to face. And I need to see these things and realize I'm not less of a a person for having those vulnerable emotions. This is why my mind goes crazy and bounces around ideas of how to get the subliminal to work faster or with less actual emotional intimacy. It's because I'm not comfortable with the things that are brought up and I just want to skip to the part where I'm all good and happy. But denying those parts of myself is what keeps me stuck in the same loop of resisting the changes being brought about.
That being said I think my personality type definitely makes it harder to remove negative beliefs about myself. I'd say beliefs are formed from things that give us emotional impact. The more sensitive you are, like I am, the more of an impact the belief has. The more of a strong hold it has in your mind. Unfortunately there was a lot in my childhood that had a lot of emotional impact on me. I used to think sensitivity was a matter of belief, but it's really an in built trait for me.
It's just all part of accepting who I am which I still haven't been able to do all that well. A lot of my life has been spent wondering why I'm so different than most people and feeling wrong. Everyone's got their own path though and I just need to focus on what works for me.
That being said I think my personality type definitely makes it harder to remove negative beliefs about myself. I'd say beliefs are formed from things that give us emotional impact. The more sensitive you are, like I am, the more of an impact the belief has. The more of a strong hold it has in your mind. Unfortunately there was a lot in my childhood that had a lot of emotional impact on me. I used to think sensitivity was a matter of belief, but it's really an in built trait for me.
It's just all part of accepting who I am which I still haven't been able to do all that well. A lot of my life has been spent wondering why I'm so different than most people and feeling wrong. Everyone's got their own path though and I just need to focus on what works for me.
