09-02-2015, 07:53 AM
I noticed something with the EPRHA subliminal for me. It brings up some strong emotions at times, well actually a lot of the time. I thought it was resistance at first, so I ignored it. But then I realized it's actually all my suppressed emotions and negative beliefs coming to the surface. I also attempt to control this emotional release which blocks the natural path it should take. I think part of my problem with this sub is stuff comes up, but I don't allow myself to release it because there's some beliefs in my head about openly expressing emotion. Even if it's not outward or apparent to others, I still feel incredibly vulnerable. It probably stems back from some childhood stuff where my emotions were invalidated.
I think there's a mechanism for release using these subliminals. But in my case it gets stuck. Due to guilt or shame. I can't know for certain, but I've noticed I tend to be very uncomfortable with my emotions.
On that note I've been running this sub for 11 months now. Which is a lot of time. In that time I've made some changes and my life feels like it jumped onto a different track so to speak. But there are still some things like social anxiety and depression that still get to me. And I've recently stopped beating myself up for not overcoming these problems sooner. I'd have a bad habit of wanting to change so bad that I'd ignore how I really felt and try to convince myself I was further along because it made me feel like less of a failure. But I realized that was a step back because then I pushed my beliefs and feelings down further which made them harder to process.
I think honesty is important when it comes to self change. If you hold a belief deep down that you aren't good enough and refuse to recognize it, it'll haunt you. You can tell yourself to let it go, not believe it, focus on the positive, etc. as much as you want. But I think the fact remains when a negative belief is gone it's gone. If there's any doubt or hesitation then most likely there is still stuff to be cleared out and it's better to acknowledge that than hold onto the idea that you no longer have it. It's not always pleasant, especially when you realize you've been running a subliminal for close to a year and those things still linger, but it beats being ignorant to it and subconsciously acting out self sabotaging behaviors.
I think there's a mechanism for release using these subliminals. But in my case it gets stuck. Due to guilt or shame. I can't know for certain, but I've noticed I tend to be very uncomfortable with my emotions.
On that note I've been running this sub for 11 months now. Which is a lot of time. In that time I've made some changes and my life feels like it jumped onto a different track so to speak. But there are still some things like social anxiety and depression that still get to me. And I've recently stopped beating myself up for not overcoming these problems sooner. I'd have a bad habit of wanting to change so bad that I'd ignore how I really felt and try to convince myself I was further along because it made me feel like less of a failure. But I realized that was a step back because then I pushed my beliefs and feelings down further which made them harder to process.
I think honesty is important when it comes to self change. If you hold a belief deep down that you aren't good enough and refuse to recognize it, it'll haunt you. You can tell yourself to let it go, not believe it, focus on the positive, etc. as much as you want. But I think the fact remains when a negative belief is gone it's gone. If there's any doubt or hesitation then most likely there is still stuff to be cleared out and it's better to acknowledge that than hold onto the idea that you no longer have it. It's not always pleasant, especially when you realize you've been running a subliminal for close to a year and those things still linger, but it beats being ignorant to it and subconsciously acting out self sabotaging behaviors.