Hello! My Introduction

[ArcticFox]

I've been thinking loads about subliminals, being alpha and what it really means, procrastination and motivation but haven't posted anything.

Rather than post in my Journal i'm going to ramble a bit here in my intro. Its just thoughts onto paper - not concrete opinions, so feel free to ramble with me.

Mods - i can always shift em to another forum section if needed(chatter).

I've been on about 8 days of silence now, no subs on my 32 day fast towards starting EPRHA. I've been thinking how cyclical i am as a person. I go from being motivated and proactive 1 week: eating healthy, keeping the house tidy, doing all the little jobs. Then the following week: procrastinating, lack of drive or enthusiasm, lazy.

This results in my house getting messy, not eating right, watching too much TV, etc. I do however always manage to do yoga and run/exercise when I get the chance - it doesn't seem to effect that part of me.

I will then get to the point where I have to sort the house and my room out and tidy, then feel really good, sleep better, and am happier because of it.

I've also want to make small change sin my life like get up at 06:00, damn even 07:00 would be good!! But my entire life i have always got up at the last minute to maximise my time in bed, then have 20 minutes get ready and dash for work. Never in my life have I habitually got up with enough time to appreciate the mornings, do yoga, eat breakfast, run, read - even though I love it on the rare occasion i do do it.

I've tried a lot of conscious things to break these habits:

Getting things done - David Allen (great book if you apply it)

Personal Power II - a 30 day program by Anthony Robbins, very good and did get me to make some changes

Silva Mind method - Visualisation techniques based on the Silva Method

I really apply myself to getting into them and i'm thinking "Wow, this is going to be amazing" but then a few days later i don't apply the techniques and forget about them, then pick them up 6 months later and start again, get really motivated and pumped up and then go back to square one a week later and don't apply them. AND SO IT GOES ON.....

I guess this is what has led me to subs, I need to change something beyond my conscious level otherwise i don't see myself breaking the cycle.

I'm now beginning to think that perhaps i should start with a Procrastination or motivation sub, and then moving onto EPRHA?