AM 5.0+AOS

[justint27]

hey Justin, really good to see you herfe again. i think that you are now running AM6. me, too. In which stage are you man?
i must congratulate you on your style and hair. what i love about it is that you do simply your thing and what you think is right for you.
just reading your response to our questions here rev eals really that you are a cool person. i will be following this journey closely and will share my expriences on AM6 soon.
all the best

Hey Light,
Good to see you too!

I actually am doing AM 5 for the 2nd time-I bought it a couple years back. I havent upgraded to 6 yet, so you're probably ahead of me I'm in Stage 4.

As far as AM goes, I have been pretty calm but one thing that Ive noticed in particular during the last month or so is when people are in my way physically, I get really annoyed. Like when Im downtown and people stop in the middle of the sidewalk. Or when people try to walk into me. Or old people who move too slow. Arghhh!

I also notice I hate being around depressing or pessimistic people. I have no room for them in my life anymore. I have felt a huge divide between my father and I in this respect. I refuse to join my co-workers' bitch fests.

As far as women, I am honestly starting to think I will be single for the rest of my life and I may actually prefer it that way. I really enjoy my own company. I actually get to go out and do the things I want to do and go to the stores and restaurants I want to go to, without anyone tying me down.

Hey Justin, great to se that you are embarking on AM5. from journals i read, i know that it is a very strong sub. AM6 seems to make it easier for me, with the naturalizer:-). I am on stage 3 an di can already really report many results so far. on stage two, i have this same feeling that if anyone is really B**sh**ing or something like that i can not take it from them at all. i had a totally new attitude and respect at my work place. sometime in the process Justin, i think this will balance itself and you no longer be feeling very angry or pissed off ( this is happening for me on stage 3). as you know these subs affect everyone of us differently. i now also understand what you told us before about fashion and hygiene. i started to slowly take more care of my hair and appearance generally speaking. i always payed attention to how i dress but now it is getting rediculous ( i mean that i am more courageous to wear things that i literally could not in the past). about women, i do not care that much. i do not think that your attitude towards women ( kind of keeping away) is a negative thing. as long as you are happy with yourself, who cares. i do expect though, that if you socialize, you will be really a sex magnet. this i sbecause you look good + you do not give a sh***t about women. this is lethal to women. who knows, oneday you will meet an artist whom you would think, ok she deserves me:-)
all the best mate. i am enjoying your journey here on this forum.

There is a sense of growth one feels when they step outside of their comfort zone. We are so afraid in general to do certain things because we want everyone to like us or we are afraid they'll think this or that about us. When one starts to understand that the perceptions other people have of you have to do with their own feelings and thoughts, that's when life begins to get a whole lot better and you can just do whatever the fuck you want.

There is no winning approval from everyone in life. There will always be someone who hates you and someone who likes you. It's just the way it is. Humans are complex creatures - a lot has to do with upbringing and environment.

I'm not keeping away from women 100%. I still talk to some, but at the same time I'm OK with being single too. I just find it really hard to find someone whos on the same page as me. A lot of women are plain and BORING. Some of them have put no effort in life and have been given everything they want from day 1 from white knights. You can't blame them...