AM 5.0+AOS

[justint27]

So Im over halfway through AM again. I definitely feel independent as of late. I think this whole subliminal journey has taught me that I need to focus on myself and my own life and to quit worrying about other people and what I can get from them. I no longer "need" women so bad. This is mostly because I am more and more aware of my own value in life. Although now I am a "lone wolf" in the world, I am a shit ton more confident in my own values and thoughts.

The same can be said for a job. I am at the point where I go into interviews and its basically take me or leave me. I know who I am and I am not going to bend or try to qualify myself to you. I am more willing to say "NEXT" and quit worrying and blaming myself "I did this wrong, I did that wrong". Life is too short to worry about other people's hang ups (which job rejections usually center around IME).

Strangers are still staring at me like crazy and I definitely get the vibe that I am different than any other guy out there. I have been getting deeper and deeper into streetwear fashion. Here are some newer pics to show you where I am at right now:
http://imgur.com/v2hV0rf
http://imgur.com/bjD9PgO
http://imgur.com/jhb8jRZ
http://imgur.com/cUWF56n
http://imgur.com/YhdueTY
http://imgur.com/3LcFWjl

No real luck on the dating sites as of late. Ive gotten a few "what do you want from me?/I would never satisfy you/You are prettier than me/You have better hair than me/You have more clothes than me/More fashionable than me" emails.

good to see your changing your look to show how your feeling. constantly moving forward on the outside and within.

Thanks. I am constantly in a state of flux, body, soul and spirit and notice I am more willing to take chances and try new things out. I actually find new things rather exciting these days instead of falling into old habits or doing the same ol' same ol'.

My brother gave me his old bike last month, so I've gotten back into biking, which is something I haven't done since i was 13 years old. I actually really enjoy the feeling of freedom and being alive riding paths or sliding down a large hill. Not to mention the cardio workout you get.

Another year has passed-I am going to be 31 on august 17th. Not looking forward to being older, but am looking forward to seeing my family and spending time with them.