AM 5.0+AOS

[justint27]

So Im over halfway through AM again. I definitely feel independent as of late. I think this whole subliminal journey has taught me that I need to focus on myself and my own life and to quit worrying about other people and what I can get from them. I no longer "need" women so bad. This is mostly because I am more and more aware of my own value in life. Although now I am a "lone wolf" in the world, I am a shit ton more confident in my own values and thoughts.

The same can be said for a job. I am at the point where I go into interviews and its basically take me or leave me. I know who I am and I am not going to bend or try to qualify myself to you. I am more willing to say "NEXT" and quit worrying and blaming myself "I did this wrong, I did that wrong". Life is too short to worry about other people's hang ups (which job rejections usually center around IME).

Strangers are still staring at me like crazy and I definitely get the vibe that I am different than any other guy out there. I have been getting deeper and deeper into streetwear fashion. Here are some newer pics to show you where I am at right now:
http://imgur.com/v2hV0rf
http://imgur.com/bjD9PgO
http://imgur.com/jhb8jRZ
http://imgur.com/cUWF56n
http://imgur.com/YhdueTY
http://imgur.com/3LcFWjl

No real luck on the dating sites as of late. Ive gotten a few "what do you want from me?/I would never satisfy you/You are prettier than me/You have better hair than me/You have more clothes than me/More fashionable than me" emails.

Your aura is on dude

You think so? I haven't listened to AOS in a few months now. I started AM 5 back in May again to prepare for SM. Although at this point, Im not sure if I want to continue with SM or go off and do another sub, possibly success related.

I do feel like I am on a journey though. When I look at my old photos and see how far I've come and how different I look...it's amazing. Most importantly is how different I feel. My parents actually comment on this every time they see me, that I seem more confident.

There was a definite notice from everyone in my family actually. My parents, regardless of how much better they and the rest of the family think I look and act, give me minor shit about buying clothes, saying I'm wasting money, but that's really their upbringing. I grew up in a typical lower middle class family who saved and spent minimal in fear of my dad losing his job 24/7.

What's funny now is at the family get-togethers to see my older brother still try to rib me, even though he is bald and pudgy now. Never would've seen that coming as a kid...