08-07-2015, 07:49 AM
Had a moment of clarity today. I've realized a lot of my posts are largely me going in circles and ruminating. Some insights here and there, but mostly all of them just show my resistance to change.
Here's the thing, I'm reluctant to give up control. My subconscious mind has been programmed with all these great improvements and I've been resisting every step of the way. I've been trying to understand from a conscious perspective how to allow these things, how to change my behavior, to understand so I can control it. But the realm of the subconscious is largely something that's instinct/feeling based. It can't really be analyzed the same way the conscious mind can be. The process of the subconscious and how it works can be, but I'm talking about the actual moments in time where your subconscious operates. Those moments are acts of being and the conscious has little to no control over that.
Anyway my subconscious has been cleaning up house. If you imagine different rooms as different memories/beliefs in the mind, the subconscious has been rearranging cleaning and doing all this hard work. Then my conscious mind(me) has been going back into these rooms and making an absolute mess because I lack trust in what's going on. On top of that it's constantly telling me "dude, move on we are done here" but my conscious mind is stubborn and has to be dragged out of that room. If I just trust my subconscious/higher mind to do what needs to be done and stop interfering I'll make improvements. But my mistake was thinking I knew better.
I think in society there's a lot of emphasis on logic and rational thinking as the highest form of decision making. This leads a lot of people to doubt their own intuition. In reality transurfing the author talks about the alternative space. Basically it's just a massive grid of information/possibilities and everyone is connected to this. But it's our higher mind that taps into this, if you try to understand it from a lower conscious perspective you'll probably just dismiss it as nonsense or be unable to connect to it. I'm pretty sure the sublliminals tap into this grid and provide us with the answers and changes we seek, we just have to let it work. And that requires some amount of trust. And if you have issues with control, like I do, you'll put up a wall or barrier to that very powerful asset.
Here's the thing, I'm reluctant to give up control. My subconscious mind has been programmed with all these great improvements and I've been resisting every step of the way. I've been trying to understand from a conscious perspective how to allow these things, how to change my behavior, to understand so I can control it. But the realm of the subconscious is largely something that's instinct/feeling based. It can't really be analyzed the same way the conscious mind can be. The process of the subconscious and how it works can be, but I'm talking about the actual moments in time where your subconscious operates. Those moments are acts of being and the conscious has little to no control over that.
Anyway my subconscious has been cleaning up house. If you imagine different rooms as different memories/beliefs in the mind, the subconscious has been rearranging cleaning and doing all this hard work. Then my conscious mind(me) has been going back into these rooms and making an absolute mess because I lack trust in what's going on. On top of that it's constantly telling me "dude, move on we are done here" but my conscious mind is stubborn and has to be dragged out of that room. If I just trust my subconscious/higher mind to do what needs to be done and stop interfering I'll make improvements. But my mistake was thinking I knew better.
I think in society there's a lot of emphasis on logic and rational thinking as the highest form of decision making. This leads a lot of people to doubt their own intuition. In reality transurfing the author talks about the alternative space. Basically it's just a massive grid of information/possibilities and everyone is connected to this. But it's our higher mind that taps into this, if you try to understand it from a lower conscious perspective you'll probably just dismiss it as nonsense or be unable to connect to it. I'm pretty sure the sublliminals tap into this grid and provide us with the answers and changes we seek, we just have to let it work. And that requires some amount of trust. And if you have issues with control, like I do, you'll put up a wall or barrier to that very powerful asset.
