08-06-2015, 08:04 AM
Just realized there might be two separate issues going on here with my struggles. While EPRHA is a great subliminal, there's definitely some beliefs having to do with scarcity and lack of abundance in my life. Growing up I always saw my parents struggling. I didn't want that to be me, but at the same time I was getting the message that that's what reality was all about and anything else was just a fantasy world. My parents always told me I could do anything in life, but the problem is I don't think they believed it themselves. I've always been in tune to the energy of other people, so it's not what they say but how they say it.
I think that's the big fear in my life. Living a life that makes me feel like a slave to some system. But I only have that fear because deep down I don't think I see myself able to live life in any other way. And that's been further strengthened by my struggles with social anxiety and depression throughout the years.
So there's the deeper stuff, like anxiety and depression and all the beliefs that go along with self worth. And then there are the beliefs that were created about life being a miserable existence and an endless struggle.
EPHRA is taking care of the anxiety and depression. But I realized I need to work on my beliefs surrounding life a lot more. The more I tell myself a life of pain and struggle is inevitable, the more likely that's what I'll attract in my life. The opposite of that doesn't seem as real, but I think that's just because I haven't lived that kind of reality enough to know that it's possible.
I think that's the big fear in my life. Living a life that makes me feel like a slave to some system. But I only have that fear because deep down I don't think I see myself able to live life in any other way. And that's been further strengthened by my struggles with social anxiety and depression throughout the years.
So there's the deeper stuff, like anxiety and depression and all the beliefs that go along with self worth. And then there are the beliefs that were created about life being a miserable existence and an endless struggle.
EPHRA is taking care of the anxiety and depression. But I realized I need to work on my beliefs surrounding life a lot more. The more I tell myself a life of pain and struggle is inevitable, the more likely that's what I'll attract in my life. The opposite of that doesn't seem as real, but I think that's just because I haven't lived that kind of reality enough to know that it's possible.
