02-07-2011, 01:44 PM
(This post was last modified: 02-07-2011, 03:08 PM by AwesomeYoungDude.)
Since my last post I've noticed the following which I attribute to AM11:
- More aggressive with those that I disagree with.
- More constant and self confident in my approach with the world. This includes family, friends, and associates.
- More annoyance with conversations, communications, interactions that I feel are useless or not worth my time. This includes verbal and written.
- Constant use of a deeper voice when communicating.
- 3 days of resistance (now I know what resistance is). I just wanted to veg the whole time.
- Eating more.
- I get more stares from passing people. These are not stares of "somethings wrong with you", but more of "I know you from somewhere", or "there is something about you but I'm not sure what it is".
- Very bubbly females store employees (in fact all store employees are much more friendly).
- Dreams part 1: In the past dreams had no connection or ramification upon awakening (it was just a dream). For the first time at the end of my dream I had some accountability. I thought "would I like it if someone did that to me". Hmmm that's very interesting. The integrity of who I am, or want to be, is now being applied to my dreams.
- Dreams part 2: My dreams are starting to re-construct past events in which it appears that I was self-conscious. In the dream or at the end of the dream I defend my actions, habit, or behavior. These events are small occurrences in my life in which I wondered what others thought or if others judged me based on the event. But in the dream I assert the correctness of the action, habit, or behavior. Its like the event is re-written, but this time the event was either neutral or bolstered my self esteem, self-worth, and self confidence. My dream behavior is more and more alpha male.
- Dreams part 3: I'm still awaiting for zombies to show up. I'm hoping to slaughter them with the gun I've hidden in my subconscious just for this reason. OK I admit I've played some video games.
- Embolden towards employer and co-workers. Indifference towards collateral damage of my action or words. I'm driving work in the direction I think is right. I'm more and more speaking my mind. In the past I knew that this brings about an equal force of resistance from others within the company. In the past this type of behavior has come back to haunt me, but I'm now caring less and less about the downstream effects, and more and more on my ability to get things done. Only time will tell if this behavior will be rewarded by my company or will cause problems.
- Animosity towards those who play the system (employment) to get ahead and get raises when I don't thing they were worth the cost. Companies often have no choice but to reward the squeaky wheel.
- I often times wonder if the sub is working. I have an name embedded sub and I wonder if the wrong name was embedded or if somehow the name was pronounced wrong.
- The alpha changes continue to occur in a more and more and less and less manner.
I'm noticing the following which I attribute to Max Memory:
- My memory is more sticky in general. (things stick better)
- Beginning to see the spelling of words in my mind.
- Number stick in my memory better.
- I mentally see a visual representation of information new and old.
- Improvement on name recall.
- I'm concerned that at times my instant recall is slower.
- More aggressive with those that I disagree with.
- More constant and self confident in my approach with the world. This includes family, friends, and associates.
- More annoyance with conversations, communications, interactions that I feel are useless or not worth my time. This includes verbal and written.
- Constant use of a deeper voice when communicating.
- 3 days of resistance (now I know what resistance is). I just wanted to veg the whole time.
- Eating more.
- I get more stares from passing people. These are not stares of "somethings wrong with you", but more of "I know you from somewhere", or "there is something about you but I'm not sure what it is".
- Very bubbly females store employees (in fact all store employees are much more friendly).
- Dreams part 1: In the past dreams had no connection or ramification upon awakening (it was just a dream). For the first time at the end of my dream I had some accountability. I thought "would I like it if someone did that to me". Hmmm that's very interesting. The integrity of who I am, or want to be, is now being applied to my dreams.
- Dreams part 2: My dreams are starting to re-construct past events in which it appears that I was self-conscious. In the dream or at the end of the dream I defend my actions, habit, or behavior. These events are small occurrences in my life in which I wondered what others thought or if others judged me based on the event. But in the dream I assert the correctness of the action, habit, or behavior. Its like the event is re-written, but this time the event was either neutral or bolstered my self esteem, self-worth, and self confidence. My dream behavior is more and more alpha male.
- Dreams part 3: I'm still awaiting for zombies to show up. I'm hoping to slaughter them with the gun I've hidden in my subconscious just for this reason. OK I admit I've played some video games.
- Embolden towards employer and co-workers. Indifference towards collateral damage of my action or words. I'm driving work in the direction I think is right. I'm more and more speaking my mind. In the past I knew that this brings about an equal force of resistance from others within the company. In the past this type of behavior has come back to haunt me, but I'm now caring less and less about the downstream effects, and more and more on my ability to get things done. Only time will tell if this behavior will be rewarded by my company or will cause problems.
- Animosity towards those who play the system (employment) to get ahead and get raises when I don't thing they were worth the cost. Companies often have no choice but to reward the squeaky wheel.
- I often times wonder if the sub is working. I have an name embedded sub and I wonder if the wrong name was embedded or if somehow the name was pronounced wrong.
- The alpha changes continue to occur in a more and more and less and less manner.
I'm noticing the following which I attribute to Max Memory:
- My memory is more sticky in general. (things stick better)
- Beginning to see the spelling of words in my mind.
- Number stick in my memory better.
- I mentally see a visual representation of information new and old.
- Improvement on name recall.
- I'm concerned that at times my instant recall is slower.
