06-24-2015, 07:36 AM
(06-23-2015, 07:27 PM)RTBoss Wrote: First of all, I second MANY THANKS to Mat422 for mentioning this book. It's already changed my life - for the better - immeasurably.
Second, I'm genuinely so happy for you Ari. It's an amazing feeling!
Sarge, while no one has any responsibility to prove anything to you, you have the right to your opinions, beliefs, and most importantly - freedom of choice. That being said, having terrible/paralyzing fear doesn't necessarily equal a death sentence. Read this book very mindfully, without judgement, and see what your heart has to say. Apply it to your present and future and see what happens, rather than allowing your mind to pre-dismiss what you've read.
I'm not suggesting they do.
I will read more of the book as you have definitely made me think about it more with your golf story because that is a REAL LIFE application. Shocker, eh? (see guys? nothing malicious, I just don't have time to waste. PLUS, where's the sense of adventure and exploration? If this stuff is true and real, I wanna know about it! That means how it works, and seeing it work. If I could describe myself in these regards, it would be as a scientist.)
(06-23-2015, 07:27 PM)RTBoss Wrote: A pendulum could have easily been "eating up" your terror and anxiety. Like the book says, why doesn't an athlete die when hundreds, if not thousands, of people send angry negative energy their way when they disappoint? A pendulum collects it up, and uses it to keep the pendulum swingin'.
This is a little different.
Firstly: an athlete doesn't die because no one (as far as I know) dies from negative energy. A bullet from an angry fan YES, angry threats, no.
Secondly, in my situation, it was not external, it was internal. I feared I would die, I even started seeing the abyss. It was like a big, black hole in front of me, with wind coming up through it. Very intense.
(06-23-2015, 07:27 PM)RTBoss Wrote: If balanced forces were in play, and coming for you to eliminate your life as the "path of least resistance," and bring balance back to the universe - perhaps something you thought or did negated the forces. You "let go" at the last second, or perhaps you prayed and believed in the protection you received, you gave your experience over to your Guardian Angels (who aren't affected by balanced forces). If wiping out your life would cost a higher expenditure in energy than keeping you - congrats, you get to live. But...
None of this rings true for me.
I did not "let go" just went further and further into fear till I realized there were no bears around me.
Didn't pray.
(06-23-2015, 07:27 PM)RTBoss Wrote: My guess is your mind is so caught up in powering pendulums, you gave them a large energetic meal and they just want to keep you around to continue feeding off of you. Isn't that a nice thought? The good news is simple awareness, detachment, and reduction in importance will free you from many destructive pendulums quickly.
This is the one thing that made me think there might be something to this book. I have long been a sort of anomaly in life. I don't take to crowds (pendulums?), I don't seem to benefit from anything, yet I also don't seem to be terribly well off either. I would call my life balanced.
What I'm interested in is how to "serve" pendulums which will give me what I want and negate the negative aspects of life. Which is, I think, what we ALL want: good life with no downsides.
