06-20-2015, 09:30 PM
whaddya know, been having a bit of a hell week in my own mind. life's got its ups and downs... without both sides, there's no point. resistance? maybe. will it kill me? definitely not. so what's the big deal? idk let's move on.
I feel like typing up a bunch of philosophical bullshit but it doesn't even matter. Life's all about the actions that I take, not the talk, not the thoughts.
It was made WELL aware today that I put other people ahead of myself, and it has been a constant cause of pain my entire life. I can't be letting people rent space in my head for free. I can't handle my own bullcrap AND other people's bullcrap at the same time. I need to be my OWN man. After today's conversation with my 70 year old mentor, I'm fully convinced that I've been in too much fear which prevented me from taking action and control of my life.
Damn it feels REALLY good to have my ego crushed by a wise old man. Now I know what garbage to clear out of my head!
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I feel like typing up a bunch of philosophical bullshit but it doesn't even matter. Life's all about the actions that I take, not the talk, not the thoughts.
It was made WELL aware today that I put other people ahead of myself, and it has been a constant cause of pain my entire life. I can't be letting people rent space in my head for free. I can't handle my own bullcrap AND other people's bullcrap at the same time. I need to be my OWN man. After today's conversation with my 70 year old mentor, I'm fully convinced that I've been in too much fear which prevented me from taking action and control of my life.
Damn it feels REALLY good to have my ego crushed by a wise old man. Now I know what garbage to clear out of my head!
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