06-07-2015, 06:55 AM
I've noticed I still have a lot of doubt and lack of trust in myself. I'm trying to be honest with myself so I can see where I need to improve, but also not get sucked into that bottomless pit of negativity that I've become so familiar with. It's a careful balance. Too much non stop positivity can be a sort of band aid for avoiding deeper negative feelings. And too many negative feelings without resolution just turns into wallowing. And I've done a lot of wallowing thinking I was somehow releasing that emotion.
Also I was wondering how much you go on auto-pilot after using these subliminals for a while. Does it just become another way of being? It seems like I still have to provide some conscious intervention as my negative habits aren't completely removed yet. Like I haven't fully stepped into a reality where I'm happy and achieving my goals, it sort of still feels like pretend. Lately I've been making a habit of turning my mind to what I want in my life every time I think of what I don't want. So if I feel like I'll never make good enough music I just visualize in my mind making good music and enjoying it. It's almost like writing a script for my life. I figure it's good to tackle things from both ends, the conscious and subconscious. I've found that my conscious mind has become very adept at creating negative scenarios. And admittedly I've neglected it because I always felt like subliminals would take care of everything, but waiting around for the negative to automatically go away was kind of stupid on my part.
Anyway I'm slowly realizing how people tend to set their own limits and how those limits are nothing but beliefs. The hard part is, it's not always just what you think in your own head. You're also subject to the pressure from others who will impose their beliefs on you as well. So you always have to be aware when people talk as if they are an authority on a particular matter. Particularly the ones who have been burned by life and want to make everyone as miserable as them. Those people are the worst, instead of taking responsibility they just want to drag everyone else down to make themselves feel better.
Also I was wondering how much you go on auto-pilot after using these subliminals for a while. Does it just become another way of being? It seems like I still have to provide some conscious intervention as my negative habits aren't completely removed yet. Like I haven't fully stepped into a reality where I'm happy and achieving my goals, it sort of still feels like pretend. Lately I've been making a habit of turning my mind to what I want in my life every time I think of what I don't want. So if I feel like I'll never make good enough music I just visualize in my mind making good music and enjoying it. It's almost like writing a script for my life. I figure it's good to tackle things from both ends, the conscious and subconscious. I've found that my conscious mind has become very adept at creating negative scenarios. And admittedly I've neglected it because I always felt like subliminals would take care of everything, but waiting around for the negative to automatically go away was kind of stupid on my part.
Anyway I'm slowly realizing how people tend to set their own limits and how those limits are nothing but beliefs. The hard part is, it's not always just what you think in your own head. You're also subject to the pressure from others who will impose their beliefs on you as well. So you always have to be aware when people talk as if they are an authority on a particular matter. Particularly the ones who have been burned by life and want to make everyone as miserable as them. Those people are the worst, instead of taking responsibility they just want to drag everyone else down to make themselves feel better.
