06-06-2015, 02:27 AM
Nothing too exciting to report today. I did my energy practices so will be interesting to see if I have any adverse reaction tomorrow. I haven't today. I'm thinking that if I don't then the Qi Gong stuff I learnt at the class on Thursday may have helped with that. I actualy want to get angry because it's a clear and visceral sign that the work is having an impact.
Before I started on the subs I'd been doing a few weeks of other practices and one girl noticed the change. She admitted she used to be uncomfortable around me and that it was a huge change. She's going to something I'll be at in the next day or two so it'll be interesting to see how she responds to me.
I scavenged through scribd's documents and found some interesting ones to read. I'm going to do the energy practices again today, and add in the special set of kidney-related ones. I need to transcribe those as they're aprt of an hour long video. Doing the practices probably takes 20-30 minutes tops. Also need to do the Healing Sounds and Inner Smile today, that I did during the class.
Something really interesting I'm noticing is that when I stretch I feel more alive. Normally I stretch to unwind tight muscles, but I'm noticing that I have an energetic or maybe a more ehannced feeling. It's really cool.
I'm also noticing that more and more sources are leading me towards viscerally imagining sexual situations with girls to strengthen and exude my sexual presence.
Another thing I did was I started looking through the daily deals we have here. Not sure if this is a worldwide thing but some websites offer companies a way to promote deals. Sometimes 60-90% off as a way to promote themselves. Paid $30 for an hour-long accupuncture one which I am going to take up in the next week or so. And there area bunch of massage ones, but I'm more interested in keeping an eye out for a Reiki one. There's also some really cool course ones for cheap.
I also had a freaky as hell dream last night. Even when I woke up I could only remember fragments. I think it was a girl I liked and she lived in a small suburb next to where I grew up. I seem to recall being on the train with a bunch of people going to my home town and I got off at her station. I think I asked her out but she said no. She was lying in bed when I asked. As I went to walk out I think I heard her crying. Her friend came out of the room (she wasn't there originally) and I scared her. She said that some guy had ended things (I guess she had a partner and he broke up with her). Her dad came home and was swearing about the guy getting on train (maybe he followed the boyfriend?). As you can tell I'm not exactly sure what happened, it was like I had pieces but not the whole thing.
The crazy part is that it was the town next to where I lived (which is about an hour from where I am now) and I was on my way back to where I used to live except I haven't lived with my parents for about 4 years and had no reason to be going back there. The other weird thing is the online girl lived in the suburb that this girl lived in. Maybe my brain was processing the online girl situation...
Before I started on the subs I'd been doing a few weeks of other practices and one girl noticed the change. She admitted she used to be uncomfortable around me and that it was a huge change. She's going to something I'll be at in the next day or two so it'll be interesting to see how she responds to me.
I scavenged through scribd's documents and found some interesting ones to read. I'm going to do the energy practices again today, and add in the special set of kidney-related ones. I need to transcribe those as they're aprt of an hour long video. Doing the practices probably takes 20-30 minutes tops. Also need to do the Healing Sounds and Inner Smile today, that I did during the class.
Something really interesting I'm noticing is that when I stretch I feel more alive. Normally I stretch to unwind tight muscles, but I'm noticing that I have an energetic or maybe a more ehannced feeling. It's really cool.
I'm also noticing that more and more sources are leading me towards viscerally imagining sexual situations with girls to strengthen and exude my sexual presence.
Another thing I did was I started looking through the daily deals we have here. Not sure if this is a worldwide thing but some websites offer companies a way to promote deals. Sometimes 60-90% off as a way to promote themselves. Paid $30 for an hour-long accupuncture one which I am going to take up in the next week or so. And there area bunch of massage ones, but I'm more interested in keeping an eye out for a Reiki one. There's also some really cool course ones for cheap.
I also had a freaky as hell dream last night. Even when I woke up I could only remember fragments. I think it was a girl I liked and she lived in a small suburb next to where I grew up. I seem to recall being on the train with a bunch of people going to my home town and I got off at her station. I think I asked her out but she said no. She was lying in bed when I asked. As I went to walk out I think I heard her crying. Her friend came out of the room (she wasn't there originally) and I scared her. She said that some guy had ended things (I guess she had a partner and he broke up with her). Her dad came home and was swearing about the guy getting on train (maybe he followed the boyfriend?). As you can tell I'm not exactly sure what happened, it was like I had pieces but not the whole thing.
The crazy part is that it was the town next to where I lived (which is about an hour from where I am now) and I was on my way back to where I used to live except I haven't lived with my parents for about 4 years and had no reason to be going back there. The other weird thing is the online girl lived in the suburb that this girl lived in. Maybe my brain was processing the online girl situation...
