05-30-2015, 06:17 PM
Maybe she just likes you Ben. 
But here's a thought I'm having recently (it's in line with being authentic, of course)
The thing is, I CRAVE junk food these days, but I'm eating healthy to "live longer/better" But what's the point? I'm punishing myself, in essence, just for some future that may never come. So, too, with being myself with people. I'm a deplorable sociopath at the core, and I believe people are picking up on that, so I'd better "own it" soon, lest I be discovered as untrustworthy, you know?
But then I'm thinking "ok, but a sociopath won't last long in the social/sales jungle" and so, I guess, I'm doing self-improvement out of fear. Fear that my basic self is someone that will be rejected, by everyone, and will die alone.
This is so profoundly powerful and is becoming a growing theme for me. What do you guys think?
Have you ever seen the two extremes or is it just me?
But here's a thought I'm having recently (it's in line with being authentic, of course)
The thing is, I CRAVE junk food these days, but I'm eating healthy to "live longer/better" But what's the point? I'm punishing myself, in essence, just for some future that may never come. So, too, with being myself with people. I'm a deplorable sociopath at the core, and I believe people are picking up on that, so I'd better "own it" soon, lest I be discovered as untrustworthy, you know?
But then I'm thinking "ok, but a sociopath won't last long in the social/sales jungle" and so, I guess, I'm doing self-improvement out of fear. Fear that my basic self is someone that will be rejected, by everyone, and will die alone.
This is so profoundly powerful and is becoming a growing theme for me. What do you guys think?
Have you ever seen the two extremes or is it just me?
