02-01-2011, 09:53 AM
Been using the sub regularly for the past week. Nothing dramatic happened (like i secretly hoped it would) but more a gradual awakening, like its hard to explain.
I work in an office with ALL women. the ratio used to be 6 guys 2 girls. but now its 7:1 in favor of the women. it doesn't really bother me, but for the fact they want me talking about shit all the time. dumb stuff. anything. I'm not a talker anyway so I just wann say shut the f*ck up and leave me alone. Let me let me do my work and get outta here. this past week, though, i've been able to sit and listen or stand and listen to dumb shit a lot easier.
for instance, a girl stopped in to ask how my weekend was, and normally i would've iced her, but i kept the conversation flowing, just for the sake of doing it. weird.
another time, this girl emailed pictures of her baby's first birthday party. I could've cared less, but stepped into her office to talk to her about it for the hell of it.
i would also say that my "don't give f*ck" mentality is higher. listen, when i work, i'm sort of a perfectionist, and need to be on top of my shit at all times. but today, i got in to work late (because of all this ice) got a nasty customer show up a tell me off about something i forgot and some other stuff. but you know what? i didn't care less. i felt pretty much like i missed an easy pass playing basketball, and had to keep playing --- it stung for the moment, and then i was done with it and concentrating on something else. hell yeah!
other changes include my movments. I am walking noticeably slower now, kinda like savoring each step, head up with a bit of a swag.
my eye contact is also improving. i listen to the sub at my desk all day, so i get my eight in no prob. love the progress so far.
I work in an office with ALL women. the ratio used to be 6 guys 2 girls. but now its 7:1 in favor of the women. it doesn't really bother me, but for the fact they want me talking about shit all the time. dumb stuff. anything. I'm not a talker anyway so I just wann say shut the f*ck up and leave me alone. Let me let me do my work and get outta here. this past week, though, i've been able to sit and listen or stand and listen to dumb shit a lot easier.
for instance, a girl stopped in to ask how my weekend was, and normally i would've iced her, but i kept the conversation flowing, just for the sake of doing it. weird.
another time, this girl emailed pictures of her baby's first birthday party. I could've cared less, but stepped into her office to talk to her about it for the hell of it.
i would also say that my "don't give f*ck" mentality is higher. listen, when i work, i'm sort of a perfectionist, and need to be on top of my shit at all times. but today, i got in to work late (because of all this ice) got a nasty customer show up a tell me off about something i forgot and some other stuff. but you know what? i didn't care less. i felt pretty much like i missed an easy pass playing basketball, and had to keep playing --- it stung for the moment, and then i was done with it and concentrating on something else. hell yeah!
other changes include my movments. I am walking noticeably slower now, kinda like savoring each step, head up with a bit of a swag.
my eye contact is also improving. i listen to the sub at my desk all day, so i get my eight in no prob. love the progress so far.
