05-25-2015, 01:55 AM
Well today was interesting. Little confused though. I've not had any dream recall for the past two days. I thought the first night might have been because I was tired and both nights I've taken the night portion of day and night cold tablets. Thoughts?
I was frustrated/grumpy about something this morning. Also noticing I'm not paying as much attention to the things around me. Like I'm not focusing on them. Before I'd be aware of the buildings, the birds, the people, but as though I was assessing my environment. In my head.
I also felt a bit spaced out at times and possibly like my head was empty. I think it's just something that's normal but I'm not used to it so it feels strange.
The online girl is asking me lots of questions. And turning lots of them flirty haha. I'm flirting back, it's fun. I still am unsure how I feel about her, whether I'm attracted to her. She also told me to let her know if she's bothering me with the questions. My response was way more alpha than usual. Normally I'd respond and be like 'haha you're not bothering me'. This time I wrote 'No worries if I'm doing something I'll just reply when it's done'.
The girl from the other night never replied back to my text. I'm a little annoyed but also amused that I only realised today around lunch time haha.
Had a meeting at work and it 'felt' like my boss was paying me more attention. I felt like I was much more solid in the meeting. I wanted to speak to him about something aftwards so I waited outside. He was in a conversation with another team member. Normally I'd shuffle a bit and feel awkward. This time felt much more comfortable.
I am feeling a bit more 'listless'. I don't know if that's the word. Like I space out a bit. My movements seem a bit less edgy. It's like I'm more solid in myself or something.
Definitely a bit more annoyance/aggression perhaps, but I can easily handle it.
I was frustrated/grumpy about something this morning. Also noticing I'm not paying as much attention to the things around me. Like I'm not focusing on them. Before I'd be aware of the buildings, the birds, the people, but as though I was assessing my environment. In my head.
I also felt a bit spaced out at times and possibly like my head was empty. I think it's just something that's normal but I'm not used to it so it feels strange.
The online girl is asking me lots of questions. And turning lots of them flirty haha. I'm flirting back, it's fun. I still am unsure how I feel about her, whether I'm attracted to her. She also told me to let her know if she's bothering me with the questions. My response was way more alpha than usual. Normally I'd respond and be like 'haha you're not bothering me'. This time I wrote 'No worries if I'm doing something I'll just reply when it's done'.
The girl from the other night never replied back to my text. I'm a little annoyed but also amused that I only realised today around lunch time haha.
Had a meeting at work and it 'felt' like my boss was paying me more attention. I felt like I was much more solid in the meeting. I wanted to speak to him about something aftwards so I waited outside. He was in a conversation with another team member. Normally I'd shuffle a bit and feel awkward. This time felt much more comfortable.
I am feeling a bit more 'listless'. I don't know if that's the word. Like I space out a bit. My movements seem a bit less edgy. It's like I'm more solid in myself or something.
Definitely a bit more annoyance/aggression perhaps, but I can easily handle it.
