AM6

[eternity]

i realized i've been going through another phase of isolation. Sometimes I just want to be left alone. Just a few minutes ago, everyone finished a movie in the living room and i told everyone to keep it down for the next movie so I can get some sleep, and C was like "Why do you have to be the old man of the group? Come chill with us!"

This is just one instance of my desire to just be alone. The girl A (from the dreams) is here too and I still don't feel like being around her. Weird.

Also, I have been having some wild resistance that I believe might be attributed to the SM3 lead in. It's like a dark cloud is over me, preventing me from using the alpha traits i'm being