01-31-2011, 08:28 PM
So I feel like nothing has really changed all that much since my last post. Those feelings of oddness definitely were me trying to force an outcome out of a situation where said outcome was highly unlikely to happen. Maybe it was my friend, who knows. Forget that, time to move on.
I'm curious to see what the other stages look like since I feel like I got the bulk of the messages in stage 1. I know why 32 days is recommended, so that I can continue to solidify what has been going on in my head, and I definitely won't skip ahead. Each time I record stuff in my journal (not this one), recently I have been putting in less and less. It's more like, I'm beginning to feel that my responses on the day to day interactions I have are normal responses that I should have been having all my life, but for some reason it was like I had horse blinders on my entire life and stage 1 is slowly dissolving them away. I have a feeling the next 5 stages will continue to do that.
I'm curious to see what the other stages look like since I feel like I got the bulk of the messages in stage 1. I know why 32 days is recommended, so that I can continue to solidify what has been going on in my head, and I definitely won't skip ahead. Each time I record stuff in my journal (not this one), recently I have been putting in less and less. It's more like, I'm beginning to feel that my responses on the day to day interactions I have are normal responses that I should have been having all my life, but for some reason it was like I had horse blinders on my entire life and stage 1 is slowly dissolving them away. I have a feeling the next 5 stages will continue to do that.
