wm2 so far so good

[Benjamin]

The 'i'm scared' thing is interesting.. I read somewhere recently that a woman has to be a little intimidated by a man for the attraction, like badboy kind of thing.. it's like my ex she told me she was scared of me in a message then a few weeks later was sending sexual messages. Females are irrational.. I wouldn't worry too much as it's obvious she is attracted to you, just stay centered and go for it if that's what you want to do.

As for the 'beta' thing when you're around girls longer. Like I have you probably have negative conotations thinking about it that way.. but we do need both sides of us, it helps us connect and helps you stay unpredictable.. but think about it more like one side of you is this dominant, powerful guy.. but the other side is gentle.. appreciative.. whatever.

Like you can pin her down, ravage her.. but also slowly kiss her and run your fingers over her skin.. both for different times. Every now and then it's not so bad if you reveal a little to her, you don't always have to be the badass.. in fact if you are seen as the badass then the occasional vulnerable moment will mean even more to them. The problem is learning to calibrate that.

Which is exactly my challenge right now.. guess it comes from experience.