04-29-2015, 09:49 AM
Had a job interview today for a groundskeeping job. Probably not my finest moment in interviewing history. Unfortunately my anxiety still gets the better of me and kind of makes it hard to think on my feet if an unexpected question gets asked. But I did the best I could in my circumstances and that's good enough for me. Normally I'd beat myself up on the drive back and my mood would take a nose dive, but I caught it early this time.
The only other troubling thing on my mind is job performance. I always strive to do my best, unfortunately when I'm in the process of learning something it can make me nervous and cause more mistakes. Then I might get criticized, which would make me perform even worse. I do my best not to let these things affect me, but sometimes I slip up.
I've definitely been feeling better, but there are definitely still some trigger points that spike my anxiety that I still need to work on. But I recognize that's just a work in progress and there's no need to beat myself up about it. Change will come in time.
The only other troubling thing on my mind is job performance. I always strive to do my best, unfortunately when I'm in the process of learning something it can make me nervous and cause more mistakes. Then I might get criticized, which would make me perform even worse. I do my best not to let these things affect me, but sometimes I slip up.
I've definitely been feeling better, but there are definitely still some trigger points that spike my anxiety that I still need to work on. But I recognize that's just a work in progress and there's no need to beat myself up about it. Change will come in time.
