04-27-2015, 08:03 AM
I think I might have figured out where my resistance comes from with EPRHA. After reading through a bit of my journal I've come to the realization that I lack self compassion for myself. I never really take it easy on myself, which is exactly what I need to do to get better. Instead I'm plagued by the fear if I go easy on myself I'll just become complacent and won't be good enough. The irony is, if I was easier on myself I'd get more done because I wouldn't have so much fear about not being great at it. It's very deceiving, there's a strong part of me that tells me I have to do or be something great in order to have any value in life. Kind of no surprise that holding that mentality has caused anxiety and depression in my life.
So EPRHA is pretty much attempting to cultivate a mentality of self forgiveness and self worth, but my mind is strongly rejecting the idea because of how polar opposite the two mentalities are. So from this point forward I'm going to work on practicing self compassion on the conscious level as well. I've been very good at practicing putting myself down and beating myself up, so now I just need to work on flipping it around so showing myself compassion becomes my default habit.
So EPRHA is pretty much attempting to cultivate a mentality of self forgiveness and self worth, but my mind is strongly rejecting the idea because of how polar opposite the two mentalities are. So from this point forward I'm going to work on practicing self compassion on the conscious level as well. I've been very good at practicing putting myself down and beating myself up, so now I just need to work on flipping it around so showing myself compassion becomes my default habit.
