04-23-2015, 08:34 AM
massive resistance the last few days. Feeling like I'm not worthy. Feeling less than. Feeling outcasted. Desire to withdraw into my shell. I could definitely tell this is the way I felt before I started AM6. So in a sick twisted way, I'm glad for this resistance because it reminds me of where I came from! And it's crazy because all that bull crap running in my mind is exactly that: bullcrap. I'm perceiving myself in a false light, based on my own experiences and projecting that aura onto other people in the way I carry myself.
The resistance made me want to run EPRHA after am6 instead of anything else.
It doesn't help that I've been battling myself in my head about leaving my job in hopes of starting my own business. I want to be fully self supporting through MY OWN contributions, which means self employed. That would be a very rash decision, however. The stability I have right now is imperative at this stage of my life. It's too early to shake things up
Will update more later. maybe
The resistance made me want to run EPRHA after am6 instead of anything else.
It doesn't help that I've been battling myself in my head about leaving my job in hopes of starting my own business. I want to be fully self supporting through MY OWN contributions, which means self employed. That would be a very rash decision, however. The stability I have right now is imperative at this stage of my life. It's too early to shake things up
Will update more later. maybe
