04-20-2015, 07:31 AM
Stage 3:
Day 35:
Missed a day or two plus I may I am doing one more day extra to make up for any hours I may have lost.
Kinda got used to the no fear attitude in the work place, I am a bit cockier than usual. Been intimidating some of my colleagues who may have intimidated me in the past. Thinking has matured.
Negativity is there deep inside big time. For some reason I want to lash out on anything that I don't agree with.
When with women, I am not needy at all. For now I havn't really explored any new ones, just sticking around with women who may have friend zoned me in the past. I get more hugs, touches and in some cases few punches. Friendly punches by a girl who was keen in showing me that she has started boxing lessons. Lets say that I am out of friend zone now, if I want I can play the game, but I am not interested in them now. I am keen in exploring outside my friend circle.
Social anxiety is there though, so is approach anxiety even if I want to just ask something very normal or simple like asking for directions. So the needy side has disappeared when I am with my friends but it keeps surfacing when I am out of my comfort zone. I need to put more effort on my social side. For that in few days I am either going to return to gym or learn salsa. I need to loosen up a bit. I am a bit uptight to be honest. Life long programming and taboo towards dance has really limitted my way of thinking. Well, lets see. I am also moving to a new place for few months to force myself to be around more people. This new place where I move to is filled with lots of young people, its a kind of new age housing crap. They have events a couple of days every week. I will be there for two months, after that I may be moving out of the country altogether.
I have given notice to my employer that I am quitting. I was surprised when they requested me to think again. I have been having a lot of friction with certain colleagues though. Another plesant surprise was when one of the clients (chief of an industrial giant) said hi to me as I was walking alone and said he was looking forward for my presentation the next day, and after the presentation he looked into my eyes and said 'see you next time'. Of course the presentation well. Getting respect from this guy is a big deal for me. He is someone who would rip the crap out of you if he is not satisfied. He is a super Alpha guy. A junior getting respect of someone like that is a big deal. Because I did have friction with him too. Funny at that time I was doing ASC 5g. I disagreed with him a lot and my bosses had to cool me down to make sure the project moves forward because it was brining money.
Will start Stage 4 tonight.
Day 35:
Missed a day or two plus I may I am doing one more day extra to make up for any hours I may have lost.
Kinda got used to the no fear attitude in the work place, I am a bit cockier than usual. Been intimidating some of my colleagues who may have intimidated me in the past. Thinking has matured.
Negativity is there deep inside big time. For some reason I want to lash out on anything that I don't agree with.
When with women, I am not needy at all. For now I havn't really explored any new ones, just sticking around with women who may have friend zoned me in the past. I get more hugs, touches and in some cases few punches. Friendly punches by a girl who was keen in showing me that she has started boxing lessons. Lets say that I am out of friend zone now, if I want I can play the game, but I am not interested in them now. I am keen in exploring outside my friend circle.
Social anxiety is there though, so is approach anxiety even if I want to just ask something very normal or simple like asking for directions. So the needy side has disappeared when I am with my friends but it keeps surfacing when I am out of my comfort zone. I need to put more effort on my social side. For that in few days I am either going to return to gym or learn salsa. I need to loosen up a bit. I am a bit uptight to be honest. Life long programming and taboo towards dance has really limitted my way of thinking. Well, lets see. I am also moving to a new place for few months to force myself to be around more people. This new place where I move to is filled with lots of young people, its a kind of new age housing crap. They have events a couple of days every week. I will be there for two months, after that I may be moving out of the country altogether.
I have given notice to my employer that I am quitting. I was surprised when they requested me to think again. I have been having a lot of friction with certain colleagues though. Another plesant surprise was when one of the clients (chief of an industrial giant) said hi to me as I was walking alone and said he was looking forward for my presentation the next day, and after the presentation he looked into my eyes and said 'see you next time'. Of course the presentation well. Getting respect from this guy is a big deal for me. He is someone who would rip the crap out of you if he is not satisfied. He is a super Alpha guy. A junior getting respect of someone like that is a big deal. Because I did have friction with him too. Funny at that time I was doing ASC 5g. I disagreed with him a lot and my bosses had to cool me down to make sure the project moves forward because it was brining money.
Will start Stage 4 tonight.
'Evolution depends on the variation within a species.'
Charles Darwin
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Charles Darwin
