01-27-2011, 12:52 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-27-2011, 01:45 PM by RainbowAbyss.)
Ok so 4 hours os seek the challenge, then to sleep on 10 hours alpha stage 4 011
I put seek the challenge on and after half hour, and a sip of red bull, I was reving to do some work I had been putting off, the more I wrote, the more I wanted to right and felt great about it, 3 and a half hours went by in a jippy
that sub gets the thumbs up as far as first listen immediate effects
That was last night, today is day 5 on alpha stage 4 011:
I feel very relaxed, body language is getting more and more fluid despite
Perpetual bombardment of soreness and stiffness from olympic lifts and squats
felt more centered today but I have this self conciousness again, my presence feels HUGE
and for u escoterics readings this I feel like my energy, or aura is filling up and 'invading' everyone
around me lol, IDK any other way to say it.
Neediness is dissapating again, like others have said
there is no real thrill to 'being alpha' in this stage.
I actually feel much friendlier and others r extremely respectful and friendly
Im been out of my house more, just to get out, and my current routine is really starting to bore me
sexual energy is growing
Im also moving really slowly which is weird but fun
I feel a constant sense to do new things, keep changing
and go after what I want for myself, but don't always have the energy
to do so.
I had a girl I barely know text me out of nowhere, after not seeing her in months
I seem to draw women in quite easily, much more so than 010 but something still feels off when I engage, like I can't quite be myself,
My mouth is working and Im touching and there all smiling but Im in my head worried and not really feeling it, its weird, I've never had anything like it before
On 010 I felt extremely indifferent even in the begining of stage 4 010, now I care about making things work
whatever it be, and when they don't it kinda annoys me
I will say this
as of today, stage 4 011 is getting better and better for me
I like the effects in general-it just doesn't even feel like an alpha set
I have zero aggression most of the time, and kind of want to smile at everything
Im gonna post in this journal alot until sunday and Im hoping by then u can let me know if I should
stay with stage 4 011 since ur the only one who knows what should be going on
I put seek the challenge on and after half hour, and a sip of red bull, I was reving to do some work I had been putting off, the more I wrote, the more I wanted to right and felt great about it, 3 and a half hours went by in a jippy
that sub gets the thumbs up as far as first listen immediate effects
That was last night, today is day 5 on alpha stage 4 011:
I feel very relaxed, body language is getting more and more fluid despite
Perpetual bombardment of soreness and stiffness from olympic lifts and squats
felt more centered today but I have this self conciousness again, my presence feels HUGE
and for u escoterics readings this I feel like my energy, or aura is filling up and 'invading' everyone
around me lol, IDK any other way to say it.
Neediness is dissapating again, like others have said
there is no real thrill to 'being alpha' in this stage.
I actually feel much friendlier and others r extremely respectful and friendly
Im been out of my house more, just to get out, and my current routine is really starting to bore me
sexual energy is growing
Im also moving really slowly which is weird but fun
I feel a constant sense to do new things, keep changing
and go after what I want for myself, but don't always have the energy
to do so.
I had a girl I barely know text me out of nowhere, after not seeing her in months
I seem to draw women in quite easily, much more so than 010 but something still feels off when I engage, like I can't quite be myself,
My mouth is working and Im touching and there all smiling but Im in my head worried and not really feeling it, its weird, I've never had anything like it before
On 010 I felt extremely indifferent even in the begining of stage 4 010, now I care about making things work
whatever it be, and when they don't it kinda annoys me
I will say this
as of today, stage 4 011 is getting better and better for me
I like the effects in general-it just doesn't even feel like an alpha set
I have zero aggression most of the time, and kind of want to smile at everything
Im gonna post in this journal alot until sunday and Im hoping by then u can let me know if I should
stay with stage 4 011 since ur the only one who knows what should be going on
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
