03-31-2015, 04:13 PM
Half time at stage 6. I am noticing girls start talking to me. For example few day ago my neighbor started talking to me and told me about her vacation while I went out of my house. She never said more than hello in all the years I am living here. So the turn from "you approach her" to "she approaches you" seems to work. Unfortunately it looks like I can't do anything out of such situations. Maybe some sort of fear, because in the past I realized that I can flirt with a women I already know. So maybe my comfort level here still isn't enough. Having not enough time and money to practice don't make the things better. As well as having not enough energy. At begin of this stage my sex drive went up again, but now it hits the bottom. This is pretty much frustrating.
Also I had irrational fear and thoughts about the AP code. I know that I purchased all subs legally and I didn't give them away as well as I didn't let listen them to other people while I don't (maybe if I was out to the toilet and someone could hear it, but that's not something intentionally), but the thoughts are still there. Hope I come over it because it drives me crazy.
So still a bit more than two weeks to go. I don't expect something big happening anymore, but who knows.
Also I had irrational fear and thoughts about the AP code. I know that I purchased all subs legally and I didn't give them away as well as I didn't let listen them to other people while I don't (maybe if I was out to the toilet and someone could hear it, but that's not something intentionally), but the thoughts are still there. Hope I come over it because it drives me crazy.
So still a bit more than two weeks to go. I don't expect something big happening anymore, but who knows.
