03-22-2015, 08:09 AM
1st week done, averaging at 12h/day. I have noticed a lot of dreams lately and again some fears are surfacing which should mean that they are being tackled.
One of the dreams was me in very odd places, it felt like I was one of the few people left on earth however nature looked extremely fresh and there was so much green which makes me think it might have been more in the past rather than after some near extinction event. Another odd thing was that I had a child with me. I remember having been extremely uncertain of myself at all times and when I had to defend myself and the kid the fear was quite insurmountable. The enemy seemed to be harmless though and after taking his gun I gave it back to him.
I recognized a pattern about one of my behaviours, when there were any events where I did something that might not have been all right with others, I kind of knew how to make them feel bad about me, sort of like make myself look like the victim. I would rather feel more secure with my decisions regardless the outcome than having to defend myself or not feeling like I have to if the decision might not be what others want it to be.
One of the dreams was me in very odd places, it felt like I was one of the few people left on earth however nature looked extremely fresh and there was so much green which makes me think it might have been more in the past rather than after some near extinction event. Another odd thing was that I had a child with me. I remember having been extremely uncertain of myself at all times and when I had to defend myself and the kid the fear was quite insurmountable. The enemy seemed to be harmless though and after taking his gun I gave it back to him.
I recognized a pattern about one of my behaviours, when there were any events where I did something that might not have been all right with others, I kind of knew how to make them feel bad about me, sort of like make myself look like the victim. I would rather feel more secure with my decisions regardless the outcome than having to defend myself or not feeling like I have to if the decision might not be what others want it to be.
