03-18-2015, 12:42 PM
(03-18-2015, 12:03 PM)Natious Wrote: I have completed AM6 about 2 weeks ago. It has been a challenging 7 months, partly because of the sub, partly because of my situation. But only I can be to blame for it, I did think on some level that I wasn't ready to run it yet, but went ahead and did regardless. I'm not regretting it, since the period has forced me to trust myself more in my decisions toward which subliminal I need to run.
Now I have a lot of internal conflict, I'm moderately paranoid about people's intentions toward me and have a lot of rage/anger that surfaces very quickly if I let anything bother me. Never being able to stand up for myself, I can understand at least a little why it's there. Currently my plan is to run EPRHA for the recommended time followed by running LTU for the recommended time.
I don't think I'll be writing much about external changes, at least not for now. Most of it will be internal and observing my own behaviour. External situation is not what I would want it to be, but I don't really know what I'd want it to be either so it feels comfortable enough not to take any risks. Something I want to change and not change at the same time, but hoping I can get the needed push from the subliminal use.
It seems that the biggest issue I face is that I have no motivation to do anything but waste time and let it pass by. It might be the convenience of my situation, laziness or something deeper and I think it's deeper. In the past I used to get so excited about what there is to do in the world, now I couldn't care less. I will try to be honest in my journal, but at the same time not too negative.
This is day 3 of EPRHA. Testing what different hours of listening do to me and starting with 12h/d. First day was extremely relaxing and felt "zen", following 2, nothing to report.
You are one of the few people who actually used the right acronym! Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid. EPRHA. It might be useful for people searching the forum. It's an amazing sub btw. Good luck...
