Stage 2:
Day 18:
Noticing the difference in the way people behave with me.
I felt a bit gloomy today when I woke up, its saturday so I don't need to work, so I woke up a bit late.
When I went to the bar to order a coffee the barista (in her late 50s trying to look like in her 20s) kinda looked at me as if she was not interested to serve, this I felt because she was all nice and warm with the previous customer. It was strange... Anyway!
Things turned all opposite when I left the bar and I entered the supermarket. First I am standing and deciding which sort of tomatoes I want, and this lady touches me accidentally and goes on apologizing like she made a big mistake. I didn't think much of it. Then I accidentally stamped a guys foot and he apologizes to me for keeping his feet there. A bit strange.
I am waiting in the queue to pay for my stuff, and when it was my turn the cashier seemed a bit nervous but I didn't really think of that as something to do with me. But just to test, I decided to pay with my credit card, so I gave my credit card and she didn't ask for any other identity proof. Because every time I purchased some thing in this city, they always asked for identity proof especially in this super market. Once they refused to take my credit card because I didn't bring any identity card or document which had my photo on it.
Anyway,
I am in the metro with a friend, one lady just walks in and sits right next to me despite the fact that there were empty seats.. and just before she sat she touched me (in my opinion it was just an accident) and she kept apologizing a bit longer than necessary. My friend thinks she was hitting on me because she thinks it was no accident.
I don't want to say that those ladies wanted to have sex with me, but I just noticed a big jump in the respect I get. Big time. To feel respected one must feel unrespected...
Why I am surprised or I am making a big fuss about these things ? some might ask.
I am consciously not doing anything to make these things happen. There are changes inside me but I can't pinpoint to anything. I just cant quantify the change within me. I don't know if its because of the change in my body language. I don't know, but so far I am just enjoying this process.
I can't wait to start stage 3!!
Day 18:
Noticing the difference in the way people behave with me.
I felt a bit gloomy today when I woke up, its saturday so I don't need to work, so I woke up a bit late.
When I went to the bar to order a coffee the barista (in her late 50s trying to look like in her 20s) kinda looked at me as if she was not interested to serve, this I felt because she was all nice and warm with the previous customer. It was strange... Anyway!
Things turned all opposite when I left the bar and I entered the supermarket. First I am standing and deciding which sort of tomatoes I want, and this lady touches me accidentally and goes on apologizing like she made a big mistake. I didn't think much of it. Then I accidentally stamped a guys foot and he apologizes to me for keeping his feet there. A bit strange.
I am waiting in the queue to pay for my stuff, and when it was my turn the cashier seemed a bit nervous but I didn't really think of that as something to do with me. But just to test, I decided to pay with my credit card, so I gave my credit card and she didn't ask for any other identity proof. Because every time I purchased some thing in this city, they always asked for identity proof especially in this super market. Once they refused to take my credit card because I didn't bring any identity card or document which had my photo on it.
Anyway,
I am in the metro with a friend, one lady just walks in and sits right next to me despite the fact that there were empty seats.. and just before she sat she touched me (in my opinion it was just an accident) and she kept apologizing a bit longer than necessary. My friend thinks she was hitting on me because she thinks it was no accident.
I don't want to say that those ladies wanted to have sex with me, but I just noticed a big jump in the respect I get. Big time. To feel respected one must feel unrespected...
Why I am surprised or I am making a big fuss about these things ? some might ask.
I am consciously not doing anything to make these things happen. There are changes inside me but I can't pinpoint to anything. I just cant quantify the change within me. I don't know if its because of the change in my body language. I don't know, but so far I am just enjoying this process.
I can't wait to start stage 3!!