If you ever think you may really, truly actually end your life, do not continue the program. I obviously don't want people to kill themselves.
Suicidal thoughts come from being forced to face fears so powerful that your subconscious is seeking any way out, including self destruction.
You have two options here. You can take the low road, or the high road. The low road is to quit. If you quit, you'll be where you still are (with those fears that are limiting you) and your progress will be halted until you get through them. If you should decide at some point to do AM again, you'll have to start over from scratch. In the mean time, it may take many months for you to return to the balance that the program would have given you by using it properly. The program pushes you slightly off balance in specific directions in each stage to push you to grow, and each successive stage balances the previous stage's imbalance and pushes you in another direction to grow. That's why it's such a bad idea to stop in the middle.
The high road is to recognize that this too shall pass and push through. I am no stranger to suicide on either side of the fence, having tried in highschool to kill myself on a couple occasions and having had close friends and loved ones commit suicide, as well as having counseled various people through the desire. I can tell you that I am alive because I understand that the urge to self destruct is temporary, and self destruction is permanent. It is also ineffective for hiding from your problems; all you do is create more of them.
The beta wants to hide from becoming alpha, and in his fear, threatens suicide. The alpha is master of himself, and knows better, and can work through it. The fact that you are fighting this program so hard that you have had this extreme a response is a sign that you're really growing.
So... I'd rather you quit that kill yourself, of course. But I'd also like to see you seriously consider that suicide is the beta way out in this case. And the beta will be replaced by the alpha if you see this through. Growth is not always fun or easy, but it is always growth, and once you have achieved that growth, nobody can take that from you.
I hope you choose to take the high road. But I expect you to stay alive regardless. Don't take this opportunity to stop just because you have an easy out that "I might kill myself". But definitely don't kill yourself.
Some people just are not strong enough to handle AM when they first encounter it. If that's you, then stop, go back and run EHPRA for 6 months, and try again. But if you know inside that you are strong enough, push through it. It's your call and your choice. Whatever choices we make in this life we are responsible for.
Suicidal thoughts come from being forced to face fears so powerful that your subconscious is seeking any way out, including self destruction.
You have two options here. You can take the low road, or the high road. The low road is to quit. If you quit, you'll be where you still are (with those fears that are limiting you) and your progress will be halted until you get through them. If you should decide at some point to do AM again, you'll have to start over from scratch. In the mean time, it may take many months for you to return to the balance that the program would have given you by using it properly. The program pushes you slightly off balance in specific directions in each stage to push you to grow, and each successive stage balances the previous stage's imbalance and pushes you in another direction to grow. That's why it's such a bad idea to stop in the middle.
The high road is to recognize that this too shall pass and push through. I am no stranger to suicide on either side of the fence, having tried in highschool to kill myself on a couple occasions and having had close friends and loved ones commit suicide, as well as having counseled various people through the desire. I can tell you that I am alive because I understand that the urge to self destruct is temporary, and self destruction is permanent. It is also ineffective for hiding from your problems; all you do is create more of them.
The beta wants to hide from becoming alpha, and in his fear, threatens suicide. The alpha is master of himself, and knows better, and can work through it. The fact that you are fighting this program so hard that you have had this extreme a response is a sign that you're really growing.
So... I'd rather you quit that kill yourself, of course. But I'd also like to see you seriously consider that suicide is the beta way out in this case. And the beta will be replaced by the alpha if you see this through. Growth is not always fun or easy, but it is always growth, and once you have achieved that growth, nobody can take that from you.
I hope you choose to take the high road. But I expect you to stay alive regardless. Don't take this opportunity to stop just because you have an easy out that "I might kill myself". But definitely don't kill yourself.
Some people just are not strong enough to handle AM when they first encounter it. If that's you, then stop, go back and run EHPRA for 6 months, and try again. But if you know inside that you are strong enough, push through it. It's your call and your choice. Whatever choices we make in this life we are responsible for.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
